In My Eyes (Dan X reader)

Chapter 34 ~ Thoughts

DANS POV:
The four of us are all heading back to the flat to watch a horror movie.

Pj and (Y/N) keep getting into side conversations that I can't really be a part of. They have so much in common! What if she likes him more? Why wouldn't she?

As (Y/N) talks to Pj about some art topic, she glances up and sees my glum facial expression. She flashes me a weak smile in the break of their conversation and slips her hand into mine. Then she rests her head on my arm as we stroll.

I know she loves me, she said so, but I can't help but feel jealous when the perfect girl talks to other people. I mean, who wouldn't want her in their lives?

Hell, I even get nervous when she's alone with Phil, my BEST FRIEND! He would never even think to hurt me like that!

Honestly, I think (Y/N) is the love of my life. She is my ray of sunshine, the splash of color in my monochrome life. I love her, and I just... I just don't want to lose her.

Pj's POV:
Wow. (Y/N). She sure is something. We have so much in common! Art, taste in video games, favorite genre of movies. I might have a bit of feelings for her.

But.. she is in love with Dan. Just the way they look at each other you can tell. Dan seemed really... tense when (Y/N) and I would be talking in our own conversations. He would hold her hand, or kiss her cheek whenever she would laugh. But if I was in Dan's place, I would do the same. She's perfect, I'd be worried about losing her too, even though I really have no reason to fret.

Honestly, although I can't be with her, I'm glad she is with Dan. Although he might be a bit jealous, and tonight a bit clingy, he REALLY loves her. He really cares about her. I'm glad that they are both happy.

PHIL'S POV:
I thought these feelings would fade by now! How is she still able to unknowingly control my heart. If anything, my feelings for her have grown!

She and Dan are strolling down the sidewalk, (Y/N) snuggled up next to him. I wish she would love me like that, but I'm stuck in the friend zone.

As much as I would want to confess to (Y/N), I could never do it. Dan would get terribly upset, it would ruin our friendship. Those two are my world. I love both of them. But my feelings for (Y/N) are more than platonic.

I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, but I do. Well at least she's in my life. I don't know how long I can keep this facade up though.