In My Eyes (Dan X reader)

Chapter 47 ~ Ice Cream

Your POV:
Pj and I run up the stairs of my flat. The two boys notice as we burst through the door.

"Hey (Y/N)!" Dan grins, and his eyes light up. They then flick towards Pj and dull a bit. "Oh. Hi Pj" he murmurs, less enthusiastic.

"Hi Dan" Pj and I speak at the same time.

"Jinx!" We yell. "JINX JINX JINX" we continue yelling in unison. We both erupt into hysterical laughter. Once we calm down, Phil greets us.

"Hey guys!" Phil smiles.

"Hey Philly!" I wave.

"So what are you guys doing?" He asks, looking at us with his strikingly blue eyes.

"Filming a gaming video for my channel. I haven't posted in a while" I explain.

"I know! I've been waiting for a new video" Dan chimes in.

"I haven't been in the mood because of... you know" I sigh.

"Awe. What's got you down?" Dan asks with concern. My eyes go wide and I shoot him a look of "Are you f***ing dumb?" and then he get the hint.

"Oh. Um. I'm. I'm sorry" he apologizes, his face bright red. He turns away.

"Yeah so (Y/N) and I are going to film. We'll see you in a bit" he speaks in a rushed manner. He grabs my hand and walks me to my room.

"Thanks"

"Don't mention it" he nods.

"What game?" I ask.

"Well, I heard you're pretty good at Mirror's Edge" he flashes a smile.

"Well that IS the game I play when I'm upset. So I got a good 24 hours in during my breakup with Dan"

"I still think I can kick your *ss" he says plugging a controller into my computer.

"You're on" I smirk.

>•<

"Well I highly underestimated you" Pj sighs as I beat his time by a good 10 seconds.

"What can I say? I'm the Queen of Mirrors Edge" I boast. "Well that's all for this video, please hit like and subscribe if you haven't already. Bye!"

"Bye!" Pj waves and I turn off the camera.

"Still think you can kick my *ss?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Maybe not in Mirrors Edge. You win this one" he sighs. "Oh I have an idea! Go get Dan and Phil. We can have a mini video game competition!"

"Oh okay. Sounds fun" I nod, not sounding too enthusiastic.

"What's wrong?" he asks, his eyes full of concern.

"I..." I take a deep breath,"I think I still love Dan" I feel myself about to cry.

"I mean that's normal, you haven't been apart for that long. Just give it time-"

"It hurts Pj" I sob, tears flowing. He pulls me into a hug.

"I know, (Y/N), I know" he murmurs soothingly.

"You don't know how it feels to love someone who doesn't love you back" I cry.

"You have no idea" he whispers under his breath.

"What?"

"Nothing (Y/N)" Pj replies. I return to burying my head on his shoulder, and he continues to rub circular patterns on my back comfortingly. I hear the door burst open.

"Is (Y/N) crying?" Dan blurts out. Phil trails behind him.

"Listen Dan, I really don't think she wants to see you right now" Pj says nervously. Dan looks hurt, like he is about to cry as well, nods and walks away.

Phil looks saddened as well. He opens his mouth to speak, but then walks away in silence.

"Are you alright?" Pj asks after my crying dies down.

"I think so. Hey. Um. Could you stay over? I really don't want to be alone" I ask quietly.

"Of course" he nods.

"Dinner?" My voice cracks.

"Lets go grab ice cream instead. It's only 10. The shop should still be open" he smiles, taking my hand. He pulls me up off of the bed and we walk quickly to the door.

"Where are you guys going?" Phil asks tiredly.

"Um. We're grabbing ice cream. Oh Pj is staying over" I reply, standing in to door frame.

"Feel free to drop in. We are planning on hanging out in (Y/N)'s room" Pj offers.

"I would love to, but honestly I think Dan needs some emotional support" Phil rubs his eyes.

"What's wrong with him?" I ask, my voice hoarse from crying.

"The breakup isn't just hurting you. It's been rough on Dan" Phil sighs.

"Lets just go Pj" my voice shakes, I grab his hand and we walk through the door.

>•<

Pj's POV:

It hurts to see her like this. Her smiles feel like they are deceiving me. I never know if her grins are just masquerading her frowns. Despite her laughs, her eyes are dull. The light behind them has dimmed, no, burnt out.

I think I used to want this. Not her hurting. But the breakup. I could blame human nature to want what you don't have or can't get, but there's nobody to blame but myself. I feel guilty, despite not having anything to do with the actual breakup.

Yet, deep down I have this hope, I feel like I now at least have a chance to be the reason she smiles, the reason her laughs fill the air. Of course I could never act on it anytime soon. She just got out of her relationship. But I'm going to do everything I can to help her through this. And I am being truthful to myself when I say this isn't for any selfish purpose.

The two of us walk through the empty, quiet streets, my arm around her in a friendly, comforting manner, mesmerized by the night sky. The dull, sparse stars strung across the overhanging blanket of black that was the night kept our attention the whole walk. Not a word was spoken.

The bell rings as we walk into the empty ice cream parlor. The employee looks up from his phone and stands behind the counter in a careless manner. We both order. (Y/N) asks for a double scoop of her favorite ice cream. I get a double scoop of mint chocolate chip.

I pull out my wallet and pay for the two before (Y/N) could comprehend what was going on, as she was lost in her thoughts.

We walk out of the shop.

"Listen I really appreciate it, but you NEED to stop paying for everything. I feel guilty!" She whines.

"Please, you needed it" I chuckle.

"If anything, I should be paying for you! You have to keep putting up with my bullsh*t and tears" (Y/N) huffs.

"You don't get it do you?" I sigh.

"Get what?"

"I WANT to be there for you. You are my are one, if not, my best friend" I huff.

"Really?"

"Really" I nod. Silence.

After a moment, she speaks. "Thanks Pj"

"For what?"

"Everything" she grins. I smile back in return. The rest of the walk is quiet, up until we hear yelling at the front door.