Broken ( Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

“What?” I couldn't believe what he was telling me.

I looked into his eyes trying to find some humor in what he was telling me, but the more I stared into his eyes the more I realized that he was being serious.

“Harry,” I didn't know what to say to him was he really willing to give me what I wanted, “do you know what you are saying to me?”

He nodded, “Yes. Nico I can't stop thinking about you,” he said running his hands through his wet hair causing some drops of water to splatter on my face, “and I can't seem to keep myself away from you. I know that you want more that just this sex and I am not sure if that is what I want right now, but I do know that I don't want to and can't be away from you.”

I shook my head in confusion, “What are you saying to me Harry. I don't understand. If you don't want a relationship with me then what the hell is that you want from me?”

“What I am trying to say is that if being near you and being able to be this close to you,” he said wrapping his arm around my waist, “means that I have to try, then maybe we could try and date. I am not saying I should be your boyfriend or anything. You could still go out with Keaton if you want, but just give me a chance to be your friend and if it leads to more then we can be more.”

“My friends don't kiss me or have sex with me,” I said.

“We won't have sex. I can't promise you that I wouldn't still a kiss though,” he smirked.

I blushed and said, “I don't know Harry. I like Keaton and I don't think it's fair for him that I date two guys at the same time.”

He let go of and through his hands up in the air in frustration splashing water and making me flinch, “Why not? It's not like you are his girlfriend or anything?”

He was right. I wasn't his girlfriend, but I just didn't feel comfortable juggling two guys. Especially since I had stronger feelings for one of them.

“What about Kaya?” I asked suddenly remembering that he had a girlfriend.

He sighed and rolled his eyes, “Kaya means nothing. I am breaking it off with her soon. She was nothing but sex.”

I shook my head disappointed and laughed. I used my hands to support myself and jumped out of the pool. He was unbelievable. Just when I was beginning to think that maybe he had changed and that maybe he did want something more that just sex; he tells me that Kaya was nothing but sex. How am I suppose to trust him when all I will ever be is just that, sex.

“Hey,” he yelled after me as I began to gather my clothes from the ground, “Where are you going?”

“You know Harry I thought that maybe you were speaking some truth when you said you wanted to try, but hearing you say that Kaya was nothing but just sex made me realize that maybe I was just that to you.”

I turned away from him and took off my bra since it was soaked. My back was facing him and I tried to squeeze the water out of my bra as fast as I could so that I could put it back on. I heard the movement of the water and I knew he was stepping out of it. My heart began to pound as I heard the patting of his bare feet grow louder.

“Are you listening to what I just said,” he yelled staying a few feet away from me to give me my space and for that I was grateful.

“Oh I heard you. It is just hard to believe you when I know that all you want is just sex, Harry. You are not capable of actually caring for someone at all and I am done being your sex toy. How do I know that maybe you are just saying all of this to just get me to sleep with you and then I would just be just sex?” I yelled as I zipped my pants off. I pulled my shirt over my head and began to walk away with my shoes in my hands.