Chapter 34
“I always knew that you were in love with him,” Keaton said.
I could see the disappointment in his eyes as I began to tell him about Harry and how I was just afraid to let Harry in and he was afraid to let me in. I explained to him everything that happened with Harry and I from the beginning and he just sat there not saying a word. He listened and nodded in between, but never said a word.
“I am thankful for you being there for me Keaton and I would be lying if I said that I never had feelings for you because I did. That night you kissed me I realized that there was a world besides Harry, but I guess...”
“My world wasn't enough,” he finished.
I looked down ashamed of myself for ever thinking that this would be easy, “No I guess it wasn't.”
“I understand Nicky. Like I said I always knew you had feelings for him. I just thought that maybe you and I were getting somewhere and that you were somehow getting over him.”
“I was,” I said, “But then he came back and we worked things out and it's just hard to let go of him.”
“So I guess this means goodbye,” He sighed and stood up from the table.
“No Keaton. Not goodbye,” I said standing up and reaching for his hand, “I still want to be friends.”
He looked down at the hand that was holding his and then looked back up at me. He pulled his hand away and said, “No Nicky. I don't think I can do that. I just need some time away for awhile. My feelings for you are real and they are strong. I don't want to be your friend,” he paused, “I want to be your Harry.”
“Keaton I'm–”
“I know,” he interrupted, “It's not your fault. I just feel like I need a little bit of space.”
“Space? We work in the same place. You can't avoid me,” I said.
“Actually I think I am going to go to California for awhile,” he said, “My cousin lives there and he has been asking me to visit him. I think it's time for me to try something new.”
I could help but feel so guilty about all of this. I don't want him to have to go away because of me.
“Keaton no. I'll quit my job. You don't have to go to California.”
“No don't do that. I want to go. It's my decision to go. I was going to go whether you felt the same way about me or not.”
“But I feel like it's all my fault,” I said taking a step towards him.
He took a step back and said, “It's not. We can't help who we love.”
I sighed. It was true we can't help who we fall in love with, but that didn't mean that I still didn't feel guilty about all of this. I know that he is heartbroken. I can see it in his eyes.
He took in a deep breathe and then said, “Goodbye Nicky. Ill see you when I get back I guess.”
“And when will that be?” I asked.
“I'll be back to start school in the fall.”
I nodded and he just walked away with out saying a single word. A part of me was aching because of this. I was happy, yet I was sad and disappointed. I really like Keaton, but I guess that wasn't enough for me. I wish I could have prevented this.
“Hey,” Bethany softly called touching my shoulder and making me turn to face her, “Hey don't cry.”
I hadn't even realized I was crying. She pulled me into a hug and that's when the tears began to pour down my face.
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