Against The Rules (Clexa)

Chapter 29

Lexa POV

I wake up to the repetitive alarming noise coming from my phone, I rub my eyes and hang my legs over the side of the bed. 6am. Fuck. I drag myself into the bathroom, as I pull down my trousers a sudden pain hits me, I look to my thigh to see that the dry blood had been ripped off as it was attached to my trousers, I'm bleeding. I turn on the shower and make my way in, the water is hot, almost burning my skin, but I enjoy it. But the water starts to hit my cuts, I press my hand against the wall of my shower, I clench my fists. Fuck.

Once ready I get in the car with my mother, today she had an interview and I am to watch and learn, I wonder if Costia will be there, will she be okay? I look out and watch the trees slowly turn to buildings, the towers looking like maze walls, how could someone live in such a closed in and claustrophobic place like this.

"let's go Lexa, stop daydreaming" I look to my mother and nod, I step out of the car and begin to walk, I see men with cameras begin to approach and so I catch up to my mother and grab her hand, she holds my hand firmly, she makes me feel safe. Cameras begin to flash, I shut my eyes momentarily but I need to make mother proud and happy, I need to be good enough. I open my eyes and tuck my hair behind my ear and give a crooked smile. I then feel my mother slowly release her grip.

"I'm going to be late" she says as she enters the building

She's not proud. I'm not good enough. I'm frozen, cameras still flashing. They must think I'm crazy. Stupid. Weird. I feel as if I'm about to faint. Suddenly Costia comes out of the building and grabs my hand and pulls me inside. She cups my face and strokes my hair back.

"are you okay, don't worry I'm here" she engulfs me into a hug and I hold her tight back, my face buried in her shoulder

"I can't do this, I can't"

"yes, you can Lexa, I know you can, it will just take time" I give Costia a small nod, she leads me to her office with my hand in her, I hold on to her with a tight grip hoping it would help me stay standing. Once in her office Costia sit me down and gives me a glass of water. "Look Lexa, I understand you're going through some hard times but I promise that you'll get used to it one day, I'll be with you every step of the way" she takes the glass of water out of my hands and cups my face, she leans in and our lips connect, no this feels wrong, this isn't right, an image of Clarke flashes into my mind

"Costia Stop, I have to umm go, I'm sorry" I quickly rush out the room, I don't bother finding my mother and I run straight outside, I'm not sure where to go so I decide to just get in a uber, the first place I can think of to go is that coffee shop.

Clarke POV

"How's it going Clarke, I haven't seen you in a while"

"yeah you haven't, what a shame...... okay, bye"

"hey, what's up with you, is it that time of the month or something" I have fucking had it with this asshole, I turn to find him inches away, I look up to see a cocky smile on his face, I'm not in the fucking mood for this shit so I clench my fist and slam it into his face, and with that I walked away but shit that fucking hurt my hand.

I'm really sorry for the lack of updates and stuff guys