Today is June 1st signaling the last day of school in my community. I was supposed to be happy.
Sadly, I'm not so happy.
I've been looking at my crush, having scenerios in my mind about how the last day of school is about to go for me but nothing even close to that happened.
I feel like at this moment he is asking my best friend out. Just because M.C. is a selfish person she would obviously say yes.
I remember telling this girl that I think I'm in love. I felt like one of those werewolves sensing their mate. I knew where he was, what he was doing, and who he liked.
I felt so crushed every time i would see him next to a pretty girl knowing she wasn't me.
Knowing he didn't want to talk to me and all. This guy would give me glares every time I would walk into class but I still couldn't help falling in love with him.
It broke my heart knowing that he didn't like me, but my best friend.
Yesterday this girl told me that she just thought he was cute. That's all.
How tf are you going to tell me, that all this shit that you made happen was for nothing. Now he's falling for her and I'm left heartbroken with no one by my side.
So let's just get what I was trying to say out of the way.
I personally thought that I aced all my tests but I didn't. But I'm still passing though.
I went into school thinking that I'm about to leave this bitch, guck all of these annoying ass kids, these annoying ass hoes. I came in there so happy to leave.
We were in the cafeteria at first, but as I looked around I found HIM looking at M.C. I was heartbroken but it doesn't matter. I feel like a jealous best friend, but how can't I if she's ruining my life.
It looked like he was going to ask her out. Like he was prepping. I hope that goes well.... 😤😤😤😧😧.
I took my last 2 test and i failed both. Shit I didn't fail but to me I can't accept a b.
Anyways as I was leaving school i saw him for the last time because I don't think I would ever see him again. I'm going to another school, he's going to another school with my best friend. I'm not sure if I can call her that anymore.
He didn't even spare a glance my way and a pang, a huge pang hurt me in my heart I thought I was gonna die. But somehow I bared the pain. Tears were coming out my eyes and it hurt more because as I was crying I saw my other friends crying. So we walked to our busses. Me screaming how I never told HIM my feelings and K.B. And C.S. had to comfort me. It was a bad day. But today is my little sister's birthday and they was a happy wonderland going on in my house. I'm still heartbroken buy I'm fine.
