My youth should not be yours because it is mine.
I only have two years left of this thing called youth and yet, it has been spent on absolutely nothing.
No friends, not online, not in the real world.
No one I could call a significant lover.
No young love.
No friendly gatherings I could look back on.
No act of kindness was ever thrown at me.
Not by anyone.
I'm alone.
I'm tired.
I don't want to push on.
I'm tired.
Im tired of this life.
It's not what I paid for.
I want a refund.
I. WANT. A. REFUND.
It's not my fault that they don't want me.
I didn't do anything wrong.
I NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG.
Am I a pushover?
Is that what I'm supposed to be?
A pushover?
Am I too ordinary?
Do I NOT catch your attention?
Do I EVER catch your attention?
Am I a thought.
Do you remember me?
Do I remember me.
I'm tired.
Tired of this world.
Tired of myself.
Tired of this life.
I want a refund.
LORD I WANT A REFUND.
I smiled like they wanted me to.
I engaged as they wanted me to.
What did I do wrong.
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Did I not catch your attention?
