Not So Bad After All (BWWM)(EDITING)

🌹Chapter Thirty-Seven🌹

Not So Bad After All
Book One
Chapter Thirty Thirty seven
Rose's POV

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Lately, things have gotten really heated between Jay and I. Ever since what happened at the Superbowl party it's been hard for me to keep things PG when we were alone.

Like when we're at my house watching movies at night while everyone's asleep. I like to lay in front of him and spoon while we watch movies. That position has gotten dangerous. I found myself pushing my ass against him as his hands rubbed my body sensually. He'd get an erection, he'd kiss my neck, he'd grunt in my ear and we'd have to stop before I get careless.

Then there's school. He likes me sitting on his lap at lunch. Of course, I love it too but when he starts to get hard and I feel it against my ass, that's when things get a little awkward... I don't want everyone to see us that way but he makes it so hard!

I refuse to go to his house if we're alone. There's way too much temptation. His huge bed is so inviting! The shower, the pool, the jacuzzi!... Hell, the sofa...

Too many open opportunities!

I honestly don't know why I'm holding out on having sex with him. My body is obviously ready for it but I don't know if my mind is. I'm already extremely attached to Jayden, if I have sex with him there's no telling how hard I'll fall for him afterward.

Maybe it's too soon to even think about sex... It's not like we've been dating for a long time. All I know is my body craves him almost as much as my heart does. I was with Ryan for almost two years and never did my body crave him like it does for Jayden. I used to let Ryan touch me and stuff but that's as far as I'd let him go. Now with Jayden, he won't even go that far with me. The most he will do is touch my ass. I know he wants to do more than that but he's been super careful not to rush me or make me feel like we HAD to have sex. I respected him so much for that because Ryan was the exact opposite.

Though, if Jayden's hands went down my pants, I wouldn't stop him...

I think secretly I loved the effect I had on him though. The way he grunts just because he squeezes my ass. It's like he instantly gets hard... I loved that I can do that without even taking my clothes off. One touch drives him crazy. One touch drives me crazy. Imagine how our sex would feel...

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Valentines day was amazing. Jayden really went all out. He got me an enormous six-foot teddy bear that I've shared on Facebook a million times.

He got me a bunch of cute candies and candles and also went to PINK and got me a really cute shirt and leggings and on top of that, he got me a credit card for them that he'll pay monthly for...

I was definitely on the fence about the credit card thing. I honestly didn't want to accept that but he insisted that nothing was too much or too good for his girl. Of course, I completely melted when he said that... But I still didn't want him to feel like he had to spoil me with things just because we were dating. I wasn't that kind of girl and he knew that. But I loved and appropriated his gifts anyway because it was genuine.

Later that night we went out on a very beautiful romantic date. He looked so handsome.

I wanted to do something special for him too but he insisted that it wasn't necessary. Apparently the Superbowl party was his early Valentine's day gift. At least that's how he saw it...

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Few days later Jay and I were fooling around in the living room. Apparently, he thought he could catch more popcorn in his mouth than me. Little did he know, I'm the undefeated champ!

"You should just give up", I told him.

"'Give up' isn't in my vocabulary", he said getting a handful of pop corn.

"Your gonna humiliate yourself", I shrugged and grabbed a handful as well.

"Babe... I'm trying to catch popcorn in my mouth... We're way past humiliation", he chuckled.

I laughed and agreed. This is what boring winter days look like.

I still get butterflies in my stomach when he calls me babe... It still feels so surreal. Like it wasn't long ago when I hated the very thought of him. It's funny how life works. You just never know what's going to happen next.

Jay threw the popcorn in the air and it completely missed his mouth as predicted.

I gave him an 'I told you so' look and he rolled his eyes at me.

"Again", he did it again but this time it bounced off his forehead. He grunted annoyed and determined, "Again".

Before he could do it again I threw the popcorn up in the air and caught it in my mouth with ease. I put almost no effort into catching it.

"Show off", he threw popcorn at me.

I gasped and threw some back. Before I knew it we were involved in a very messy but very fun, popcorn fight.

When we ran out of pop corn he softy tackled me to the floor. In a laughing fit, I did not fight against him.

"You got popcorn in your hair", he smirked hovering over me.

"So do you", I chuckled, "You have a little piece on your lip".

"Do I?"

"Mhm", I nodded, "I'll get it".

I licked his bottom lip and kissed him softly but yet full of lust.

I couldn't help myself! He just looks so good! And the way he has been staring at me all night hasn't been helping!

When I pulled away from the kiss, he rested his forehead on mine and groaned. "I wish you wouldn't do things like that".

"Why?", I asked.

"Because it's fucking sexy and drives me crazy".

"That's a good thing".

"It definitely is", he smirked down at me. "Everything about you drives me crazy".

"Yeah?"

"Mhm", he mumbled as he kissed my lips, jawline, and neck.

The things he makes me feel...

We heard a knock on the door and Jay and I sighed heavily. There is always an interruption.

"I'll get it", he got up and headed towards the front door.

I laid there feeling a little irritated. We seem to always get interrupted when things get heated. Maybe that was a sign.

"Hey man," I heard a guy say.

I got up and went to the door to see who it was, "Who is it?", I asked. Jay moved aside so I could see, "Ryan?"