The Rising Truth

Talk

Ok, so I wrote the first chapter of my drabble yesterday, and then I realized that I could get banned from Wattpad, so I posted it on AO3. http://archiveofourown.org/works/11096043

SAT was super easy, surprisingly. I think I did pretty well. Also, my Yuzusho Oneshot is going to be published today, if the wi-fi doesn't turn off. I'm on break so I can update more frequently.

Yuzuru pov.

We had fallen back into our usual pattern. I wake up at 7:00 am, facetime him at 8:00 (9:00 pm in Japan), go to practice, scroll through his social media at lunch, go back to practice, around get small texts conversations around 6-7:00 pm and face time him at 8:00. Then the cycle continues. I was nice, I'm not going to lie, seeing and talking to him every day. Whether it be text messages with memes and pictures of food, or it'd be face time with one of us eating breakfast and the other preparing for bed.

I was scrolling through Shoma's private Instagram when it suddenly updates. It hurt my heart when I saw it. Shoma laughing with Sota Yamamoto. I feel bad since Sota has always looked up to me, but a part of me despised Sota. For the past decade, Sota had taken my place as Shoma's best friend. Every time I see him on Shoma's page, I get so jealous and angry. Shoma is always so happy with him. He laughs and jokes easily with him without fear. Even though we are friends now, whenever he's with me, he's so respectful and formal. Even though it lessens day by day, I can't deny that I envy his and Sota's relationship.

I don't know why this is agitating me. I think maybe it's my frustration with my quad salchow that is transferring over. Everything is just agitating me. I need to not be so snappish. I almost snapped at Shoma yesterday, but I stopped myself quickly. I don't want to relive that moment again.

I woke up the next day to a notification from Instagram. It was Shoma at lunch with Sota. They looked so happy. The green-eyed monster called envy was creeping up on me again. I changed and went down for breakfast, when my phone was ringing, signifying a video chat. 

Shoma appeared, with a damp towel around his neck. "Hi, Yuzu-kun"

"Hi, Sho-chan. Did you take a shower?"

"Yeah, I just got out. Are you eating breakfast?" He seemed so happy, that my heart was melting

"Yeah, I'm eating cereal."

I heard footsteps on the other side of the screen and some shuffling and a "Who are you talking to?"

Shoma turned to the voice, "Oh, I'm talking to Yuzuru."

"What?! Seriously?!" My heart nearly gave out. I knew that voice.

Sota Yamamoto hopped on the bed that Shoma was sitting on. "Hello, Yuzuru-senshu."

I have to be polite. Sota did nothing wrong, not to mention Shoma was here. "Ah, hello, Sota"

Sota smiled and waved. Shoma turned around and shooed him away. Sota took half of the queen bed and  "I'm sorry. I'm staying over at Sota's house. We were training together and I was closer to Sota's house." And the ugly green-eyed monster rears its head.

"Oh, how was training?"

"It's going pretty well. I need to work on my free skate choreography."

"What's your theme for the free skate?"

"That's a secret," he smiled a me

"What? Why?" I whined to him.

"You'll see it in competitions. I want it to be a surprise." He said and yawned and blinked to clear his eyes.

"You're really tired Shoma. I'll let you go to sleep. Good night, Shoma."

"Hmmm, ok. 'Night." He said, leaning back on the pillow on the same bed as Sota. 

Wait, wait, no. I didn't know that Shoma was sleeping in the same bed as Sota. If I had known, then I would've kept Shoma awake until midnight. The video chat ends and I slam my phone on the table. I sit there pouting until as my cereal was becoming soggy. I end up being pouty and in a bad mood even during practice.

The very thought of Shoma and Sota being in the same bed was going to drive me insane. What if they get cold and cuddle with each other? What if Shoma has a crush on Sota or it's the other way around? What if they're in love with each other and are just hiding it? Shoma would tell me if he and Sota were together, wouldn't he?

I didn't notice I was standing in the middle of the rink until Jun-Hwan bumped into my back.

"Oh, I'm sorry Jun-Hwan," I say quickly, turning around.

He took a step back and smiled. "It's alright. Is something bothering you?"

"No, it's nothing."

"Hey, Yuzuru! Jun!" Javi yelled at the edge of the rink, "You want to grab something to eat?"

"Sure!" I turn to Jun for his answer, and he nodded.

"Oh, you guys going out to eat? I'll join you!" Nam got off the bench and stood next to Javi.

It was my turn to pick a restaurant, so I chose a sushi restaurant. It wasn't completely authentic, but it was the closest that I found in Toronto. We were halfway through our meal, when Javi asks me, "Hey, Yuzuru. What were you thinking about at the rink earlier?"

"Oh, it's nothing." I wasn't going to talk about me suspecting Shoma and Sota having a romantic relationship.

"Is it about Shoma?" Javi says in the most deadpan voice. I start choking on my udon and struggle to swallow. So much for subtlety. 

"Wait, what about Shoma?" Nam turned and looked back and forth between us. Even Jun was interested.

"It's nothing," I hurriedly say, but am met with raised eyebrows.

There was no point in fighting this battle. I was going to lose anyways. "Alright, if I tell you, you can't post it on social media, okay? The skating federation must not know."

The two nodded their heads. "Okay, Shoma and I use to be childhood friends and we recently made up. Problem is that I like Shoma as more than a friend. However, I don't think Shoma likes me the same way since he seems really close to Sota."

"Wow....I knew you guys were close, but not this close." Nam looked at me awestruck

"Wait, why would Shoma and Sota be a problem for you?" Jun asked. Poor kid, he knew little of relationships and love.

"Well, it's obvious. Shoma and Sota are like best friends with each other. Even the Japanese media knows that." Nam says matter-of-factly.

I become really down by his words. I had no right to be jealous of Sota. Sota was with Shoma when I couldn't be and when I was given the chance, I was too much of a coward to talk to him. Shoma gets along better with Sota. 

Jun look at me and said, "Why don't you just tell him that like him?"

"Eeh?! I can't do that. I just finally got Shoma to be my friend, I don't want to ruin it."

Javi finally spoke up. "But won't you regret it if you don't tell him and end up losing him? I mean if he rejects you, you'll be sad but you won't regret the fact that you never told him how you feel."

I lean back into my chair and pouted. I can't confess to Shoma. Do I love him? I'm pretty sure. Does he love me? No clue. Does he love Sota? I mean their comfortable sharing a bed. I mean me and Shoma shared a bed but I don't know if he was comfortable with me. Ugh, Why can't he just read my mind.

My one-shot is getting published right after this. It was supposed to be published yesterday but Wattpad messed up so now I need to fix it. Anyways, send me requests and thank you for reading!