Truth hurts

Chapter 24: Mr Milan

|Christina|

Mom: "Christina Nicole Sofia Millian, what the hell are you trying to tell me?"

Me: "what do you mean ma? I've told you. "

I knew she was mad. She never called me  by my full ass name. I gulped and watched her.

Mom: "Christina!!.....Christina, you're lesbian?"

"Nooo.. I mean... no.. I don't know okay?!" I looked up as I felt tear forming.

I knew she would be mad. I knew she would be disappointed.

"Then what is it? Why didn't you tell me earlier that Jaz was a girl?!"

"It's complicated" Im whimpered.

"HER BEING A GIRL IS COMPLICATED? WHAT THE FUCK CHRIS." She huffed and leaned against the counter. "Every single one of your exs have been handsome men. All muscular and Built and now all of a sudden you're into girls!!?"

"I DIDNT KNOW SHE WAS A GIRL" the tears were to strong to fight off. I looked her on the eyes "I d-didn't know okay."

She looked at me crazy.

"What do you mean you didn't know"

I sighed. "Let me explain"

I sat her down and we spoke for a good hour. I explained everything, about me not knowing, us not talking, us both moving on and coming back together and this holiday. How this holiday could determine what happens next.

"So she lied to you and you still forgave her?" My mom asked in complete shock. She reacted like this because I don't forgive anybody. Especially those I mess around with. 

I nodded in Response.

"So are you lesbian Christina? I mean after all that has happened I can't blame you if you are...but you know, you can't really build a proper family of your own. I mean you could but...."

"Ma I know. But I still haven't come to terms with it yet. I don't look at girls like that but when it comes to Jaz it doesn't even feel like a sexuality, it just feels right. That's why I need this holiday. We need it. To work things out and see where it goes. I know you want grand kids ma and a beautiful wedding for me and I want it all too. I can still have it all ma. I mean it may not be the same way but I can still have it.

She nodded. "I get it now. I kind of wished that you had opened up earlier. I would of understood a lot more. I can't say I'm not upset about it all but you're my daughter and I love you. Your happiness is my happiness. You know you are going to have to tell your father, you know, if this holiday goes well"

I nodded.

I knew my Dad was going to be more affected than my mom. He would always go on about me meeting a guy like him. I mean Jaz could be like him sort of.
I don't think I could ever tell my pa but I nodded at my mom.

At around 10pm Later that day I went back to Jaz's to confirm to her I was coming.

"Sooo what did your mom say?" She asked with curiosity.

I wanted to prank her and see her reaction, so that's what I did.

I didn't look at her and held my head down.

"Chris? What happened" I heard her get up from her bed

"Jaz this can't work, we cant be together. I told my mom, you know that you were a girl and she took it completely wrong." I smirked a little trying to stop my laughter.

"What?! No!! I don't care. I'll confront your mom myself, I'll show her how much you mean to me. I'll let her know that know one else can look after her daughter better than me. I don't care Christina. I'm not losing you again"