LALANI'S POV
I can't believe what I just said but I'm getting tired of everybody I mean what do you want from me? I come here to get away from people wanting something from me and then Keondre tried to use me. I'm gone turn into what everybody wants me to be and see how much they like me then.
PHONE CALL
Me: "Saul I don't want anything to do with you okay. I don't care about this anymore what do you want from me?"
Saul: "I want to see you"
Me: "Why? You ruined my life and my relationship with my father. I don't want to see you I don't even want to speak to you"
Saul: "I told you what to do. Meet me there or else..."
END OF PHONE CALL
I shook my head scared as to what was coming but then I remembered I'm not the same LaLa anymore. I'm tired of being pushed around and Saul is definitely not going to have power over me. I crossed my arms and watched them practice a few times and then Keondre came and sat next to me.
"LaLa listen--"
"What douche?"
"Douche?"
"Yes as in douche bag. And I'm not joking after tonight I want to be on a plane back home"
"Well what's stopping you? I had your flight out for next weekend because my shows are going to be back home now if you want to go home now find your own ticket if not wait"
"Alright suit yourself", I got up well tried, he grabbed my wrist pulling me back down into my seat. "Touch me like that again and I'll castrate you"
"You not and where do you think you're going?"
"Don't worry about I'm not yo problem. You said find a way home and I will"
"LaLa listen to me I don't want us to be like this. I was wrong okay. I shouldn't have tried to--"
"It's to late for an apology. Oh and you wanna know something. The first guy who I hugged is my best friend. I've been knowing him since I was little, we grew up together until his mom got a new job and they moved out here. The guy I was dancing with I could care less about because I didn't know him. You said try something new so I did. If I felt like I did good enough I was going to show you and thank you for taking me out and enjoy myself because I was. But you let your jealousy get a hold of you. And I said we weren't together so I could do what I want so you could consider making me your girl okay? There I said it I wanted to be with you but I see that's not going to happens you know what just leave me alone"
I got up again and made my way out of the theatre. I knew what I was about to do was going to be crazy so I need to set some things straight before I do it.
PHONE CALL
Me: "Mom I forgive you and I hope you forgive me. I love you and tell everyone I love them to", I said almost crying
Mom: "I love you to mija but you're scaring me right now. Where are you and what's going on?", I could hear the disquietude in her voice
Me: "I'm about to handle a burden so I can leave it by the riverside. But I don't think things are going to have a good outcome and I don't know if or when I'm going to be coming back home so just know I love all of you guys and I forgive you everybody and I hope y'all can forgive me. I love you. Bye..."
Mom: "W--"
END OF PHONE CALL
I couldn't stay on the phone with my mom knowing she would just ask what I was doing. And try to talk me out of it. I know this is stupid but I have to do this, I have to face my fears by going to Saul, my uncle who was a child molester who made me drug females and put them into his rape house. He owned a sex trade and when me and my dad went out there he took me there and they made me go to each girls bedroom and drug them. I told my mom that and she said I could ever see my father again but we had to tell my siblings something else so they wouldn't ask questions as to why he just never came back.
"What happened with you and Dre?", I turned around and seen Josh standing there.
"He was wrong for what he did. Why would you do that to me after he knew how I was. I was just going to have fun because I wanted to get my mind off some things but then he get mad cause I didn't what he said but with other people. Come on Jay I'm not with it"
"I understand that but this ain't you. We need the old you back, the cool girl trying to get us to go to church all the time and telling us about ourselves"
"She got tired of trying to evangelize to people who doesn't want to do better for theirselves so go ahead and do what y'all do and I'm going to do the same", I saw my cab pull up so I got in but Josh got in with me. This is going to be a long rest of the day.
