We rode back to the house and I took a shower. When I got out I put on pajamas and I started massaging Keondre' shoulders.
"Best friend you okay?"
"Nah, I've been on drugs and I've done things to people but I never put my hands on a woman. I don't even get that aggressive with women and I hate when men do that", he started clenching his fist and he got up from the bed.
"Where are you going?"
"For a walk in bed to clear my head right now before I forget that's yo brother", I exhaled after he left and then Demetria came in.
"Hey girl, I'm sorry for disturbing your peace I know you two just got back on good terms"
"Girl don't apologize I'm sorry for my brother you didn't deserve nothing he was doing to you"
"I know but it was sort of my fault"
"Why do you say that?", I asked moving to the recliner he had in the room while she sat on the couch.
"Well before we went to church I noticed he was gone so I addressed it and he told me he had been working overtime to pay the bills and take care of us. Okay you know the way my family was and how it's just me and my brother, so I check on him to make sure he was telling the truth and I he was. I brought him lunch Saturday and he was happy and we were doing good but when he came to get me from church I made him mad because...I...I thought I was pregnant so I took the test and I didn't tell him"
"Wait so are you pregnant?"
"Yeah I am, I have a doctor's appointment this Friday to check on the baby and everything. I should've told him about the baby when I found out, he somehow found out why I brought him lunch and then I slapped him. It's my fault, I did this", she said crying.
"Yeah you did", I said hugging her. "But you both should've had self control not to put your hands on each other"
"I know I just...I don't know he just, he can be a perfect gentleman at times but then, he was so foul and rude. He took me back to a place I didn't want to revisit and I guess I just snapped"
"Yeah and he snapped to. You two need to talk about your past in order to work through the future hun"
"You're right. Thanks girl", she said hugging me tight and letting me go wiping her eyes. "Where's Keondre?"
"He just went for a walk. Go get some rest and I'll see you in the morning"
"Alright", she hugged me again and then left.
I got a blanket out the closet and I was about to go in a guest room when Keondre came back in.
"What you doing?", he asked closing the door behind him and leaning against it.
"I was going to go in the guest room so you could have your space"
"I really don't want you to do that but if you want to you can", he pushed his self off the door and started taking his shirt off walking to his drawers.
"Then I won't go. I'm here Keondre", he put another shirt on and he hugged me real tight.
"Thank you for not leaving"
"I can't leave you, I'm stuck to you", I joked getting a light chuckle out of him releasing some of the tension he was feeling.
"Nah you can do what you want but you chose to stay by my side and I love that about you. You're loving and nourishing, I'd we were together I want you to know that I'd never, and I mean ever, put my hands on you. In any way, a man is supposed to protect his queen, not hurt his queen", I smiled still in his arms and he kissed my nose.
"You can be the perfect gentleman at times", I joked.
"I'm just keeping it 100 mama. I can't wait to see you in a white wedding dress waking down the aisle to me"
"That's random", I said cocking my head back looking at him with furrowed eyebrows.
"I'm just looking at your beautiful face and I can see it. Your laugh warms my heart and I know for sure I'd love for us to make a family one day"
I didn't say anything I just wrapped my arms around him tighter and took in the smell of his cologne. I closed my eyes and I started humming trying to imagine a life with Keondre in the future.
Would I be wrong if I felt like I just can't be with him, I love him and everything and I'm trying but I don't know if marrying him is right for me. I think I should tell him before he tries to propose and I'd be forced to say yes when in my heart it's all wrong.
When he let me go he took a shower and I laid down in the bed watching tv. He came into the bedroom and he slept on top of the covers with a little comforter over him to keep him warm while I slept under the covers. A perfect gentleman sometimes, I said my night prayer and I fell asleep, maybe this will get easier and he won't hate me for rejecting his offer about me taking his hand in marriage.
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