I drove to Keondre's house in silence thinking about what everybody said. I was starting to think about doing what they said but that's just Satan trying to knock me off my game.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
"Who is it?", I heard Keondre's voice from the other side of the door
"It's me", he opened the door and he just had on some pajama pants with his shirt off. Lord please forgive me for the thoughts going on in my head because when I saw his v-line I just wanted to see what else there was at the end of that rainbow.
"Hey. What's going on?", he asked giving me a water after he sat down on the stool next to me in the kitchen.
"My family is just...ugh. They were just talking about me saying how I had no life and everything and how I can't talk to them about anything because I haven't went through life and stuff like that but nobody knows what I've been through except my mom and she don't even know everything"
"And what have you been through?"
"More than you tell by just looking at me"
"Like what?"
"Well one time I decided to be big and bad and sneak out the house with my boyfriend and some of his friends to some rock concert. Why? I have no idea because I don't even like Rock music like that (no offense if you do) but it had got out of control and I ended up getting drunk and somebody grabbed me and put me in the back of their van which is why up until this day I hate white vans"
"Dang I'm sorry that happened. Did they touch you?"
"No they just beat me up real bad. Everything in life was telling me not to go though. I was watching a commercial and it was saying nooo nooo nooo on it so I turned it off and I started listening to music while I got ready and I don't remember what song I was listening to but they were like stay home or something like that. And then then right before I snuck out Tank-Please Don't Go came on. I just shook my head and left"
"I listened to my signs and it saved my life but you left for good?"
"Yeah. My mom slapped me because I told her the truth"
"And what truth did you tell her?"
"I told her how are you a preacher when your daughter is a soon to be slut and your son is a drug dealer? I called her a hypocrite..."
"And you don't think that was disrespectful?"
"Why should I care nobody cared about me and my feelings. She sat there and let them talk to me any kind of way so I was going to tell her about herself"
"You took yo frustrations out on the wrong person though. You should've been telling yo brother and sister that"
"I don't care about them anymore. They can do whatever they want, I'm tired of preaching to them. I'm tired of trying to tell everybody I know I shouldn't want to quit but I do. I've tried to get everybody I know to be saved but I'm officially done now. If you don't care to live right so you can go to heaven then why should I care. Go to hell for all I care anymore, I'd rather deal with people who don't know than people who do know and just don't want better for their self"
"I know you're upset right now but don't get all worked up"
"No I am going to get all worked up. I've been keeping this inside of me for so long. Right now I have an I don't care state of mind. If something happen to you shoot don't come to me cause I'm going to look at you with an I told you face and if you don't get the face then I will tell you I told you so"
KEONDRE'S POV
Hearing LaLa talk like that was definitely unexpected. I didn't think she would let something like this bring her down this much. And I felt bad because I was one of the people she's been trying to get saved.
