Floral And Fading || Jonnor AU || EDITING

Part Twenty Seven - Finally

"Jamesy! I did it!" You came home beaming, running straight into my arms and wrapping yours around me "You're looking at the Manager of Graphics and Design!"

"I'm so proud of you baby! That's amazing!" I smiled back, quickly pecking your lips, your smile being absolutely contagious, I had been feeling really ill all day, pretty depressed for the past week, but your happiness made me forget all that, even if it were only temporarily.

"I'm so happy!" You smiled "I've got my own office now! I don't have to share a desk or anything, it's so fancy, I'm in awe, I'm going to need some more photos of us to fill up the extra space on my new desk."

"Awh that's so amazing, I knew you could do it." I grinned, both of us now swaying in the middle of the living room.

"How about we, uh, celebrate, hmmm?" You said, raising an eyebrow and lowering your voice "You're gonna have to go easy on me though, it's been a while." You laughed a little

I smiled, briefly hesitating, only because I was afraid of my now quickly developing weakness, the loss of my abs, I felt like I wasn't sexy anymore and I was terrified you felt the same, and our sex life had really taken a toll because of it.

"What's wrong?" You frowned "Why do you keep turning me down all the time? Am I doing something wrong? Have you hurt yourself? Are you okay?"

"No, no it's nothing like that, I don't know? It just seems like now we're married there's no urgency anymore you know? We've got the rest of our lives."

"Yes, that may be so, but having a wank in the shower really isn't doing it for me at the moment, and you're a liar if you say it's perfectly fine for you. I've seen your search history, McVey." You raised an eyebrow.

"You wanna talk about my search history?" I replied in a sarcastic and joking tone "What about yours hm?"

"Fuck off." You blushed "Fuck me."

"You can't keep using that line." I rolled my eyes "700 times and it gets old you know."

"Well I've literally tried everything else, and you've ignored it, I'm still confused how you ignored me wandering around wearing underwear that literally covered nothing, you seemed completely oblivious as to what I was trying to do." You rolled your eyes "I felt like I was 15 again when I was literally moving your hand so you would touch my butt, I'm fed up with being ignored and I'm horny, I know we're married but we don't have to fall into that stereotype yet."

I sighed and looked down at the floor, feeling so incredibly guilty for hiding everything from you, feeling guilty because you feel ignored and rejected. I am so so so sorry.

"Jamesy, are you okay?" You whispered quietly, your hand gently caressing my cheek, the most caring and soft look in your face "Really really okay? Not 'I'm not going great but I don't want you to worry' fine, you can talk to me, about anything, you know that."

"I'm fine." I smiled, although you clearly saw straight through me as a soft frown settled it's way onto your brow.

"James." You sighed, by now we were slightly swaying in the middle of the living room, almost dancing "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I shrugged "I'm just having some issues, like, I haven't been to the gym in months, and I don't look the same and I'm terrified that you'll think I'm not sexy anymore and just give up." I admitted to you, looking at the ground.

"Jamesy." You shook your head "You preach loving yourself at all costs and yet you hate your body? You helped me love myself and you think I won't love you? Are you crazy? Yeah your abs were nice, but they weren't what I fell in love with, they weren't what made me stick around for so long, if I only loved your abs, I wouldn't have dated fifteen year old you and I certainly wouldn't have slept with you, it's crazy to think that you genuinely feel that way. You've loved me through every stage of my body, even when I was on the unhealthy side of skinny, you've stuck through it when my ribs were poking you and my spike would stick out and jab you. I love you, and I don't need any of the muscles you used to have to find you incredibly sexy, I don't need that shit, because I have you and that's more than enough, you could be 200 pounds and I'm sure I'd still want to sleep with you constantly." A small smile finding its way onto your lips as you played with my fingers "But if you don't want you tonight, I understand. How about instead we go to Tesco and get some food and watch a movie to celebrate?  Your choice of movie and you can have the covers on the bed."

I cracked a little smile at your sweetness and agreed. "I'll take you out on the weekend, we can go out for a meal to celebrate your promotion, mmkay honey."

"Sounds wonderful." You smiled back, pecking my lips before pulling away from the embrace "You coming to the shop with me?"

"Sure." I nodded, slipping some shoes on and following you out to the car.

We went to Tesco and picked out some food for the movie, getting a couple of stares from people who saw our hands linked together but by now we were totally used for it, we couldn't go anywhere without a couple people staring at us. We got home and picked out a movie, deciding on a cheesy Adam Sandler movie because secretly we both loved them even though most people claimed to hate his movies, we both thought they were pretty funny.

Thankyou for understanding and putting up with me. Congratulations on getting your dream job I am so incredibly proud of you and everything you have, and will, achieve.

Love,
Forever and always.
James x

AUTHORS NOTE OOH FANCY

HEY GUYS
How are you? Good
Good.

Two things

1. I've finally uploaded my new tradley (only took like 7 months lol whoops) so check out Patchwork Love, I'm pretty excited about it

2. Updates for everything are gonna slow in the coming weeks bc

A) my bands have like 600 shows coming up (that's a lie but it feels like it) including two festival slots and it's ac scary af , and I've literallly for practise for a different band every night of the week

B) my exams are on this week and I have done 0 revisions lol I'm up Shit creek without a paddle really

And

C) I'm going to see Green Day and to pay back for my ticket I have to babysit my friends sons so I'm legit super busy sorry

But
This story is so nearly done like nobody knows how close we are to actually finishing this story, the last three chapters are emosh

Okay maybe we're not that close but I've written like 70% of the upcoming chapters already so it feels a lot closer to the end that it actually is if that makes sense

Okay loves
Good bye :)