Arranged Marriage with Luhan

Let go.

Jjeolbae's P.o.V.

I stared at the blue skies as I walked home alone. Peach petals started welcoming me. I have the knowledge that I cannot escape this misery. All I have to do is endure and conceal it.

Everything is in its own place, but why does this have to happen? I stopped and stared blankly at the cemented floor, recalling what they have said a while ago.

"Miss Jjeolbae, I also heard that they are going to cancel your communications with the twelve." 

Wind cascaded and passed through me, letting my hair flow. The wind wwas sorroful, just like my remorse. This is too much, just too much.

I stared at the house--our house. I looked at my side; I can see myself carrying the boxes which contained our things with the twelve—it was the past. It was when we first moved to this house.

“Jjeolbae! Look at this keychain! My mom gave this to me!”

“Is that so? It’s cute!”

“Hurry! I cannot stand here carrying two boxes while you’re having fun!”

I looked down and bit my lip. Should I really leave? I went inside as I looked around. I saw the elevator that we first used. It led us up to our rooms. 

“Use the stairs, fat people.”

“But it’s soo tiring!”

“All you have to do is to stomp fifteen times! It’s not like the gravitational force is strong. It may seem tiring but fun!”

"Aish, our appa Suho."

I held the door’s knob as the flashbacks lingered upon me. 

“Hey! We have to buy our school supplies now! If you don’t hurry, I’m gonna buy you pink notebooks that would humiliate you in front of the class!”

The memories. Why do they keep coming? I cannot help but chuckle, chuckle because I know that I am totally hopeless, and totally driven away from these guys.

I opened the door as I saw twelve men waiting for me with worried looks on their faces. Grief covered their once cheerful auras.

"You have heard the news, didn't you?" I asked in a sorrowful tone. They nodded in comprehension and looked down. I sat on a spot left for me. We are now circled around.

"I heard that they will also cancel all of our transactions. All of us." beamed Suho as the room was filled with gray color.

“Yeah.”

Silence lingered.

“Remember when we beat Jjeolbae up?”

“Yes, she even ordered our pizza.”

“And when she fainted on the corridor?”

“Yes, she was cool back then.”

“Why are you praising me? This Hello Kitty Lady have been admitted on the hospital for a whole month!” I shouted as all of them laughed in a hopeless manner. Tears started streaming on my face.

 “Yeah! And we escaped when we were at Jjeol’s practice room!”

“That was cool though. We seemed like action stars back then. Assassination era.” Tao said and made a gun hand motion.

“I even listed pranks! Can’t you see? I filled a notebook! I didn’t even reached the half!” shouted  Chen as we laughed. After that conversation, all of us abruptly stopped. We exhaled as we looked at our ceiling.

“It was fun.”

“Yeah, it was.”

“The thought of us coming here the first time still is fresh in my mind.”

“Yes, and when we bought our school supplies.”

“I remember when we completed our project- the ones with the first graders. Kris was such a  bad dad. But luckily, the kid behaved so well without his blabbers.”

“I’m so glad that I have been with you guys.” I said as tears formed on my eyes again.

“Yes, thank you guys.”

“We have been through a lot.”

“Hard ones, I’m literally speaking.”

“You...You made me feel that I belong, that I have a purpose in this world. You made me strong, and you made me tough. I love you guys, and there will be no better friends like you, for me, of course. We have been through so much. And I would give what I can just to be with you. It hurts me so much just by hearing the word ‘leave’ with the word ‘EXO’. It pains me so much. It was like I was stabbed a hundred times here in my heart.”

“Stop with the drama, will you?” Luhan beamed as I smiled. He looked away as a tear flowed in his cheek.

"I'm not."

"We cannot resolve this, can we?" 

"I think so."

"It's our parents we're talking about."

I took a cup and sang in an acoustic tone. I cannot speak from my mind anymore, for it feels like I am being struck with a bullet. All I could rely to is a song.

(Play Wherever I Go-Miley Cyrus.)

"Here we are now, everything is about to change" 

Yes, here we are, on the brink of dispersion.

"We face tomorrow as we say goodbye to yesterday" Kyungsoo continued.

Although we do not want it to happen, we just have to face it.

"A chapter ending but the stories only just begun" sang Chen.

We would stop here and part. Each of us will start our own, and live alone.

"A page is turning for everyone" Chanyeol said in a sorrowful tone.

For another story is yet to come.

"So I'm moving on"

Although it would be hard.

"Letting go."

It's not just for me, but also for them.

"Holding on to tomorrow"

I have to see through a future. A future that would keep me strong, and hope that we would meet, someday.

"I've always got the memories"

All these fun memories, I have to keep them locked in my heart.

"while I'm finding out who I'm gonna be"

I have to find myself, I have to be strong.

"We might be apart but I hope you always know"

Yes, indeed. All I have to do is close my eyes,

A short pause was heard as all of us continued.

"You'll be with me......wherever I go."

And endure the pain that resides in me.