(sm) She walked passed the bus stop

{Emilia-23}

When Shawn said those five simple words my heart felt like it ripped out of my chest, thrown on the ground, and stomped on until there was nothing left. I let everything out and that lasted about three hours. Aaliyah took me out of his room to sit in the waiting area. She offered me comfort, food, water, and love, while all i did was cry. She sat next to me the whole time though, she is very protective just like Shawn. I wanted to talk with him but I knew i would just cry. I guess Shawn heard me crying or something because three hours later the nurse came to me and said Shawn wanted to see me. I wanted to go, but i also didn't, I was the reason he's here, it's all my fault.
"Could you please go first?" I asked the nurse and she went into the room first and i waited until she came out and then i entered. He looked happy to see me, but there was curiosity in his eyes. I didn't run up to him like i did the first time. I didn't want to startle him again. So i just looked deep into his eyes and he actually didn't know who i was. His eyes were focused differently, instead of looking into my eyes, he was observing me. He does that to new people he meets.
"Do you want to sit next to me?" He said breaking the empty silence and patted on the bed. I nodded and inched closer to him, step by step. When i got to his bed i slowly climbed on it and sat next to him. I didnt talk at all and neither did he, the only sound was me sniffling from time to time.
"So you're my girlfriend?" He said but basically asking a question. That made laugh.
"What?!?" I said surprised "I didn't know that!' I said laughing.
"Well my mom said that technically you're my girlfriend but it's not official" He said trying sound smart.
"That sounds better!' I said feeling a bit better but then realizing why we are here.  I asked him if he actually didn't remember me and he sincerely said he didn't. But he said  I get to help him remember. I asked him if he remembered what happened and told me what his parents had told him, but he has no memory of what happened. I asked him if he knew who he was with and he said he was still trying to figure that out.
"It was me" I said and couldn't take it anymore, i cried and cried and cried. Shawn actually wrapped his arm around me and rubbed my back, I love when he does that. He was whispering in my ear, I couldn't hear him though I had fallen asleep.  When I woke up, i was still in the hospital bed but shawn was hugging me and had his head in the crook of my head. I heard him him muttering something but i just looked at the most amazing human in the world. I think he was starting to wake up so i closed my eyes so he would would think i was still sleeping. To my surprise when he woke up, he just stayed snuggled up in my neck and started kissing my neck.