Can I Gain Back What I Have Lost?

RECOVERING

Being stabbed by a mordor blade was not exactly a pleasant experience and even though sarumon had healed the poison it still hurt Tauriel very much and was taking and unusually long time to heal. " It was a nasty cut it will heal well but it will take some time. you must rest until then!" said one of the healers.

If only it could have been on my arm, thought tauriel as all the healers left the room. Thailand knocked on the door and tauriel said come in. "Tauriel, will your leg heal?" he asked with pity in his voice which was unusual. " Yes my lord but it will take time" He nodded and left the room.

Tauriel looked around the room sweat covering her forhead in the dim light, feeling restless. As she looked own at her bandaged leg a  dreadful thought can to mind.

"They could have killed me, i would have died without seeing him again. Seeing his face again. Saying im sorry, and telling him the truth"

A single tear fell from her slid down her cheek. Tauriel thought of kili ,and a lightening presumption came to  mind" I thought i was in love with a dwarf!" she exclaimed in surprise and almost laughed at the idea of it.

Had she loved him?....... No. she had not known him long enough to love him.

When she knew there was no hope for her and legolas she had given up. When she met kili she was charmed by him and noticed that he took a liking to her. When she saw that she could be favored by at least someone, she held on to the only thing that was tangible and thought she was worth loving. Tauriel thought to herself " I saw the hurt in legolas' eyes, when he saw me with that dwarf" a sadness came over her. " I love legolas and i always have. When i see him i will tell him the truth, even if his father does not approve!" she said determined." I will not hide my feelings any longer."

Her thoughts were interrupted by the growling of her stomach." Good gracious I'm famished !" she exclaimed. She looked at her leg and at the door again. She was given strick instructions not to move, lest her leg be harmed even more. " Ill just go grab an apple, no one will even notice me", she thought and slowly slid out of the high bed falling to the ground! She shrieked but quickly remembered that she had to be quiet. With all her strength, Tauriel lifted herself up and started limping to the door.

Just as she reached for the ivory carved handle a healer opened the door! " What are you trying to kill your self or some thing!" she exclaimed." I thought i told you to stay in bed! Uh its always the lowly silvan elves that are all the trouble!" She turned on her heal and walked out before tauriel could give her apologizes and explanation.

But at those words, Tauriel went white. "lowly silvan elf" . The same words thailand had always used. Thats all she ever heard in her head, those words. The words that kept her from loving legolas for all those centuries. She was not hungry any more.She just laid on her side and drifted into a sleep. But not a peaceful sleep, the kind that you get no rest from.

hey guys sorry i was on vacation. im so tiered right now its like 3 in the morning im trying to catch up on the tree books im writing. sorry it was a little short, the next will be very long we will be with legolas next time. if you enjoyed please vote and leave a comment!!!!!! thanks:):):):)