Beast Within*Kellic*

Chapter Eighteen

Kellin POV

I'm going insane.

I haven't seen Vic for six days, although the time I did on Monday barely counts since he told me to fuck off.

He had told me that he needed time to himself. Time to himself for what? Time away from me?

What did I do? Did I do something wrong? Is he going....going to break up with me?

I felt my heart squeeze painfully in my chest as the thought crossed my mind. I never wanted Vic to leave me. I mean...I loved him.

Was that my mistake? Did the fact that I loved him scare him?

I just don't know anymore.

I sighed, pulling out my headphones as I continued my walk home from school. Why didn't Vic want to see me?

It was only about when I was halfway home when I began getting angry.

Why the hell was Vic taking his anger and shit out on me? What the hell did I do to him?

I didn't deserve this!

I was just about to turn around and storm over to his house when my phone rang.

It was Mike.

"Yeah?" I sighed as I answered. I would always be nice to Mike, no matter what-even if I was seething on the inside-because he's always been nice to me.

"Hey, Kellin," he said awkwardly, which was strange. "What's up?"

"Almost home, why?"

"Were you planning on coming over here and talking to Vic any time soon?"

I couldn't lie to him. It seemed wrong to lie to an Angel.

"....yes."

He sighed. "Thought so. Anyway, don't do it."

"Why not?" I asked in disbelief. I thought he was on my side!

"Vic just...Vic just needs a little time."

"Oh, sure. Time away from me, I suppose."

"Kellin, don't be bitter. It's not like that and you know it."

"Do I? Do I really?"

"I didn't want to tell you this, but he was getting ready to leave. I just stopped him."

"What do you mean leave?"

"He was getting ready to run, Kellin. He doesn't want to face you, and I don't know why. I just stopped him from leaving, and he asked me to tell you that he doesn't want to face you right now, so just give him time."

"That's a whole lot nicer than telling me to fuck off."

"He told you to fuck off?"

"Yeah. On Monday."

He groaned. "I swear he's always fucking shit up."

"So he was going to leave, huh? Leave without telling me? He was just going to break my heart and move on to the next girl or guy he could pick up? Charming."

"Kellin," Mike said. It sounded like he was warning me. "Don't think like that. You know that's not how it is."

"You know what, Mike? Fuck that. I don't have to put up with this."

"Kell-"

"See ya in ten."

I hung up, turning around and hurrying to Vic's house.

He was going to have to face me, whether he wanted to or not.

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I didn't bother knocking on the door, knowing that the wouldn't answer. I just walked straight in. Fuck everybody right now.

Except maybe Vic's dad.

His dad scared me.

I scanned the room, seeing that it was empty. The house seemed pretty empty in general, so I wondered if anyone was home.

"Um, hey Kellin."

I turned to the sound of my name, seeing Vic. He looked exhausted, and...scared? worried?

"Hey," I answered.

"So?"

"What the fuck is your problem?" I yelled at him. He flinched back, shrinking into himself. "Why the fuck do you suddenly need all of this time to yourself? I haven't done shit to you, Vic! why are you taking whatever the hell you're feeling out on me?"

"I'm sorry, Kells," he whispered, looking up at me. "I just need some time to think."

No. Thinking was bad. Thinking might lead to leaving.

Speaking of which.

"To think about what? How you're just going to leave without telling me, leaving me with a broken heart and a faded memory?"

He looked surprised, but then groaned quietly. "Fucking Mike."

"Yeah, 'fucking Mike' is right, you asshole. Now why don't you tell me why the hell you've been avoiding me?"

"It hurts to look at you and know what I've done to you," he murmured. "Don't you understand? I can't live with myself knowing that I've fed from you, even if it was with your permission. I love you, but I broke the number one rule I made with myself."

"That's it?" I asked in disbelief. "You hate yourself because you fed from me? That's why you've been avoiding me?"

"What the hell do you mean 'that's it'?" Vic asked angrily. "That fucking promise? That meant fucking everything to me, Kellin! Do you know how hard it was for me to just feed from you? Do you know how hard it was to just let the Demon inside of me win? What if one day when I'm feeding from you-if I ever feed from you again-the Demon takes complete control and I'm not me anymore? What are you going to do then, Kellin?"

I let his words sink in. I guess I had never thought to see his side of the story, to see where he was coming from. I seem to forget that no matter how much I know about his world, I'll never be apart of it. I'm just a mere Mortal. I don't realize what he has to go through, and maybe he doesn't know himself. I mean, he is the only half hybrid in existance.

"I'm sorry, Vic," I apologized. "I shouldn't have just barged in here and started screaming at you. I should have considered your side of the story, but I didn't. I'm sorry."

"It's okay," he whispered. "I'm sorry for yelling and telling you to fuck off the other day."

"It's okay," I murmured. It was silent for a moment before I decided to ask the question that's been on my mind since I walked in. "So...are we okay?"

It was silent for another moment before he met my eyes with a sad little half smile. "Yeah. We're okay."

I smiled in relief. "Thank you. Can I kiss you?"

"Come here."

He held his arms open and I walked into them, wrapping my arms around his waist and hugging him tightly. He sighed heavily, but happily as he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me back.

"I missed you," I murmured, burying my face in his neck and pressing little kisses. He chuckled, lifting my head.

"I missed you too," he whispered. I looked into his warm brown eyes, feeling butterflies in my stomach.

"Good. Now c'mere."

He chuckled again, tilting his head up a bit so I could press my lips to his. Our lips were locked in a sweet embrace-that is, until Mike decided to ruin it.

"See what happens when you listen to me, Vic?"

"Fuck off, Mike."