The Hit You Missed

Time Passes, Nothing Changes

(4 months later) I still urge myself not to tell James how I feel. I've been holding it in for so long, I just can't find the words. I wish he would get closer, and sometimes he actually does. When I needed help during Chemistry he scooted his chair, along side me that I had to move my chair a little so he wouldn't notice. Then another day he had asked me who I liked and he told me who he liked, but I can't remember what he said. I made James believe I actually liked someone, but I actually liked him. But, I couldn't find the courage to tell him. I still look up on this day because of what a fool I was, how stupid I was when I had the chance to tell James what I really felt.

I just can't believe it. But, I knew not to tell him because when you tell your crush you like him, it never ends well. I've seen people do this and an awkward moment of silence comes. I just wish he had never had any relationships, overall I always think how stupid he is for wanting to already kiss a girl, at the beginning of high school. I don't know how he realizes that he was barely a seventh grader. We barely are becoming adults, and people already start to make naive decisions. 

I just hope one day, James will realize that his love was standing right here, writing in her most potential diary of secrets, to show what a great mistake he's made. He'll come running back to me, I just know it.