Saving Myself #1 ✔️

Chapter 29

Dean
I felt bad for walking out of her room but I was caught up in my feelings for her and I don't know how much longer I can do this, not having her in my arms, not making love to her, not telling her how much I loved her I mean I'm not sure yet if I was deeply in love with her yet but I'd love to find out.

I still blame myself for what happened to her. We could've lost her. I swear I'll find that demon and send it right back to hell. I mean I should be focusing on the fact that she's okay. Thank god she was okay. If she had died I'd never be able to forgive myself. I would've given my life for hers in a heart beat just to see her beautiful smile.

"Dean? Are you okay?" I turned around and saw Cas standing there concern written on his face.

"Yeah, I'm okay".

"Then why aren't you in Evelyn's room?"

"I just needed to come out here for some air".

"Oh alright.".

"I'm coming in now".

Me and Cas walked into her room and she was asleep. Sam was sitting next to her on one side. Sam looked up and me.

"She was wondering where you went".

"I needed some air".

"Dean are you ok?"

"Why does everyone keep asking me that?"

"Because you look upset".

"We almost lost her. That's why I'm upset".

"Dean?"

"Imagine if we lost her Sammy. What would we do. She makes our road trips so interesting. Her smart mouth and just her life would've been so short. I would've given my soul to save her. Let you two have a life together".

"Dean I think you need to go to the motel and get some sleep. Your exhausted and she's going to be okay now. I'll keep a watch on her and call you if anything changes".

"Okay. Yeah your right".

I walked to baby in the parking lot and got in. I glanced up at the floor I assumed her room was on before I turned the car on and drove.