She longed for him. She saw and heard nothing but him. She felt him on her skin but no action could be taken. All she could do was watch from a far. It was as if he deliberately sent mixed signals to captivate her. She was still undeterred.
Although she tried desperately to cast away those feelings only to increase them. She could sense that her feelings hindered him. He gazed at her sometimes but she would pretend that she was not aware of it.
"What could this all mean?"she kept pondering about. "Does he love me or not? Do you think he could be swayed to? Does my emotion show on my face? Is that why he avoids me? Does he know?"she thought whilst the tears she had held back all these years came rushing down her face. She cried. She cried for days. She cried till her face and eyes were swollen and till her voice became hoarse.
With this new revelation she decided to finally give up on him and when she finally did she realised that she wasn't saved, no she was far from it. She was instead trapped within a box she created herself. Into the arms of another she so desperately clinged to before meeting him. She still loved him but with the new changes in her life she decided to be happy.
Happy without him.
13/10/16
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RBS (Reasons Beyond Sanity)
RandomReasons Beyond Sanity Just some original random poems or whatever comes to mind ... its basically a way to relieve my stress I guess ... Read at your own risk ... Sanity isn't for everyone
