RBS (Reasons Beyond Sanity)

Worthlessness

Should I really be here?
Why was I created only to suffer?
But to others there's no reason I should feel the way I do
The emptiness is eating me up alive
I feel comfort and fear within the darkness

You're worthless
That's what I keep telling myself
I'm worthless
That's what I've accepted

"You should fight against it"
"Don't let it win"
I hear your pleas but sadly won't carry them out
It's not like I don't want to I just can't

Hope?
Long lost
Cure?
Ha that's funny
Understanding?
Not from anyone that's for sure

What's your value?
What can you put on the table?
Why would I need you?
You're too weak to survive

Why can't I even die properly?
Why can't I just fade away?
Why do I have to relive this nightmare over and over again ?
Why can't I just feel better?
Why am I never happy?
Why can't I do anything right?

Hope.....
The reason you're still alive no matter how you feel inside just goes to show you how strong you really are...
You just don't know it yet
But your body is screaming out to you
That's why the cuts were never too deep
That's why the attempts failed continuously