Aftermath

12

Meadow

After I was released from the hospital, Shiloh and I started putting our plan into action. Every time we went over the plan I got a bittersweet taste in my mouth. In the hospital I was so sure I wanted to end my parents lives but now that it's written into stone; I'm not sure.

I couldn't tell Shiloh that, we began to bond over this. It sound so fuck up but it made my heart skip a beat every time we reached for the same thing. We would accidentally brush each other's hand. I know he feel it. He has to. It felt like electricity.

"Shiloh."

"Don't start that shit meadow, we will never be together."

I frowned slightly just nodding my head at his words. It hurts like hell but I'm use to it. I don't think I'll ever find someone who can love me as much as I love them.

***

The days went on and it was time to do part one of the plan. We sat in Shiloh hot ass car, making sure that we weren't being followed. We caught Hazel and Rodney a couple of times trying to follow us. We even made Dijon stay out of loop. We don't know what side his ass is on.

"You sure you want to do this meadow?"

I shrugged slightly avoiding his glare.

"What the Fuck you mean you don't know!" He snapped.

"Watch how you talk to me! I am tired of your 'I don't know if I can love' ass! You been a pain in my ass since the day I met you."

He did something unexpectedly. He laughed. I was beyond confused.

"The fuck is so funny?"

"I been a pain in your ass!? Bitch you the one that dragged me into this shit. I give no fucks about you, your family, or my father, I been telling you this shit since day one cuz. I went to jail for you! And now I'm sitting in this hot ass car so we can kill your fucking father. I don't even know why I'm doing this shit anymore. I'm done."

He exited the car and walked to the gas station that was near by. I quickly followed.

"You're done!? Fuck you! I've been dealing with your daddy issues since day one." I said chasing after him.

"You know what you are Shiloh!?You're not just broken, you're a little ass boy. You want your daddy lil nigga!?

I was right on his heels. I was pushing his buttons. I wanted him to feel as low as he make me feel. I didn't know how I expected him to react. I didn't really think he would, I thought he would pay me no mind. But I was wrong, I should've stepped back when his shoulders hunched. But I didn't, I push him too far.Cause he turned around like a mad man and back handed me with so much force. My face was stinging and my body did a whole 360 making me fall on my back.

I was pass the point of being angry, I was frustrated and furious. I got up and started attacking Shiloh, it may not have hurt him as much as it hurt me but I was beyond reasoning with at this point.

"I hate you! I hate you!" I yelled at him with every punch.

He pushed me again. I swayed slightly almost falling on my ass again.

"I wish you just die."

As soon as the words left my mouth a bullet hit Shiloh right in the shoulder.

"What the fuck! Shiloh." I screamed when I seen him go down. I was frantic at this point.

I didn't care about my safety, I had to get him somewhere safe. I half carried, mostly dragged his big ass to his car. Dodging more bullets, I was scared shitless.

Once I was in the car I drove off.

"Shiloh are you okay?"

When he didn't respond I looked at him.

He got hit more than once and if I don't hurry to the hospital. Shiloh may die.

My emotions were everywhere as I bob and weaved through traffic. I noticed a black suv following us.

I had to make impulsive turns and drive through alleyways to lose them. I never done this before but knowing Shiloh life depended on it, it lit a fire under my ass.

I didn't know where I was going but once I seen the sign indicating a hospital was near. I followed.

Once I got to the hospital, I drove to the ER.

"Help! Please he's been shot!" I jumped out yelling while waving my hands. I was freaking out.

I saw several of hospital staff grab Shiloh.

I asked questions while following them.

"Is he going to be okay?"

"We don't know how severe his injuries are ma'am."

My tears had me chocked up.

"What is his name ma'am?"

"Shiloh Young."

"Who are you to the patient?"

"Just save him!" I snapped

"Ma'am we are going to try our hardest but we still have to ask these questions."

"I'm his.. his wife."

He looked at me. Skeptical.

"Please save him."

I said softly, not trying to be called out on my lie. The doctor nodded before they entered the room leaving me behind.

I silently prayed.

God, it's me meadow. I know we haven't talked in awhile but I need you. Please show me what I need to do. And please save Shiloh.

***

"He's stable, you can see him now."

I rushed in the room to see Shiloh.

"Shiloh I'm sorr-."

"Let me talk." He said cutting me off.

I looked at my feet. Waiting for him to began.

"Meadow, I like you shawty. I don't know how or why but I do. I been trying to fight this shit but we been through all this and I can't fight that shit no more."

"Shiloh."

"But I can't be with you."

That made me angry.

"You know what! You don't have the choice anymore. Fuck you!" I said while stomping out, slamming the door behind me.

I continued walking outside. Not paying attention to where I was going.

"Stupid Shiloh, don't know what the fuck he want." I mumbled grumpily.

I didn't see the figures in the shadow. If I wasn't so angry I would've. I didn't get to see their face when one of their fist connected. I was so shocked, that I passed out. Thinking about Shiloh, my family, and the situation I just put myself in.