Aftermath

21

Meadow

Looking at Shiloh made my heart ache. I hate seeing him like this.

"I will kill her. I swear." My voice began to crack as I tried to hold back the mountain of tears I felt about to emerge.

I could still feel the cold air sweep through the hospital gown I took from one of the rooms to avoid security. Visiting hours are drawing to a close and I wanted to be with him until he perished.

The beeping from the machine was so loud I covered my ears to stop them from ringing.

"Wake up please." I begged.

He only had a couple of hours left, I watched the clock. I can feel It slipping.

I can feel myself slipping.

"You better not leave me Shiloh!"

"Meadow?"

Turning around, I was face to face with Shiloh's killer. Both of them.

"Are you here to gloat?" I said with disgust in my voice.

Rodney spoke up.

"What are you talking about?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about! Look at him you monster!"

"He seem to be a victim of unfortunate events."

Rodney shrugged hiding a smirk from Hazel.

"I am going to wipe that smirk right off your-"

I was cut off by the rushing feet of the doctors going into Shiloh's room. That made me nervous.

I tried to get the attention of one of the nurses.

"What's going on!?" It came off more aggressive than I intended It to be.

She shrugged me off and ran into the room. I quickly tried to follow her but the door slammed in my face.

I was so frustrated, I let out a scream that turned into a whimper.

Hazel tried to console me by rubbing my shoulder but it was unsuccessful as I flinched back from her touch.

"Don't touch me!" I touched my face to wipe the fresh tears. I didn't want them to see me this way but I blocked them out for a second.

Focusing on Shiloh to make sure he was alright. He is the love of my life and I am not letting him go. Ever.

Something was different though, Shiloh wasn't moving. Why wasn't he moving?

"Shiloh!" I screamed, I was barely holding myself together.

Hazel was there again. Trying to calm me down.

"Why are you still here! Leave me the fuck alone!" I said pushing her away.

I was slowly losing my shit.

"Meadow, I know what you're going through honey. Please let me help you."

I slowly turned to the woman who broke my heart before any man could have the chance to. Her Hazel eyes bored into mine. I wanted to have that amazing bond with her, I wanted to so bad.

"I'm trying so had to forgive you but I don't know if I can."

"Meadow-"

"What if he don't wake up?"

"He will."

"He's not breathing."

"Have faith."

I stared at her in disbelief.

"This conversation is over." I said dismissing her while turning back to Shiloh.

I guess that's what I do best. Push the people I love the most away. That's just how I am.

While I was sulking, something unexpected happen.

Something that I never thought in a million years would happen.

Something I've been waiting for since I got out of that stuffy hospital room.

Shiloh. Was. Awake.

Not wasting anytime, I rushed into the room. Dodging doctors and nurses alike.

But when I got to his side I was afraid. The fear of rejection kept me at bay.

"Meadow." Shiloh whispered with a small smile on his lips.

"What took you so long."

He frowned a little.

"Umm, I was just fighting for my life."

I chuckled a little. Wiping the tears away.

I moved closer to him, speaking before I lost the courage to.

"I love you Shiloh. And I hate that it took for you to almost die for me to say it. It's just that life has been so cruel to me and I didn't think I deserved love."

"Meadow-"

"And now that I have been given the chance to actually love you, I will. With all of my heart."

"Meadow I can't be with you."

Those words froze me in place.

"Why not." I said Croaking out my response.

"It's too much. Dealing with my family and your family is too much."

I felt my heart breaking. It was the worst pain I've ever endured.

"You don't mean that. I know we been through some stuff but relationships aren't perfect."

"Meadow-"

"They are not perfect! I am not perfect. I have flaws. I admit sometimes I am passive aggressive or too aggressive. Sometimes I don't communicate effectively, sometimes I cut you off when I get too excited. Sometimes I don't speak up or show you how much I love you. Sometimes I lie, sometimes I hurt you but love is not perfect! I am not perfect and neither are you but I love you and I know you love me too.

"I can't be with you."

"You don't mean that." I said reaching out to touch his face.

He grabbed my hand. His grip caught me by surprise.

"Shiloh."

"I can't be with you, so go."

I was at a loss for words.

My heart was breaking.

"After everything we been through and just like that you're going to give up?

He shrugged avoiding my gaze.

"You're a coward."

"Just leave and never look back Shawty."

"Oh trust me. I won't." I wanted to sound strong but my voice cracked.

I quickly ran out of the room. Determined to never look back.

They say true love always find a way back to you but I don't know how true that is.