Aftermath

28

Meadow

I opened my eyes to the sun streaming in and the smell of bacon. I groaned when I sat up fully.

My head felt a thousand times heavier than usual.

"Where am I?"

The place felt foreign as I looked around to use my context clues. Finally with enough strength I willed my legs to move. I proceeded on wobbly legs to the
living room and then it hit me. I'm in Shilohs room, in his house, with all of his lies.

That made me angry.

Pushing myself off the wall, I walked into the kitchen to give Shiloh a piece of mind.

He looked so peaceful and innocent, it made my stomach turned because I know he's anything but innocent.

His smiled faded when he seen my face.

"You think you can make breakfast and everything will magically go back to how it was?"

"Good morning to you too"

"Fuck you and your stupid breakfast, I hate you."

He sighed loudly

"No you don't"

"I do and I hate your baby, I could never love anything that will have half of your chromosomes. He might grow up to stab me in the back too."

He was on me like shit on flies.

"You know what! Fuck you! I wish I could have the baby on my own so I don't have to do with your fucking whining. I told you not to fucking fall in love with me and what did your dumb ass do!?"

I looked at him like he was crazy. I wasn't expecting that outburst.

"Shiloh-"

"You fell in fucking love like a dummy and I fucked up but, since I'm never going to hear the end of it get the fuck out of my crib."

I couldn't believe my ears, was he really telling me to go? Was this motherfucker really kicking me out?

"What the fuck did you say to me?"

"GET.THE.FUCK.OUT"

"I'm not going no fucking where, are you crazy?"

"For fucking with you? Yes I am. Now get the fuck of my house before I drag you out."

"I wish you would put your fucking hands on me-"

I couldn't finish my sentence. Shiloh burly ass picked me up like I weighted nothing while I kicked and screamed for him to let me go.

I bit and clawed at his back but it had no affect.

"I hate you, and I hate everyone related to you."

I tried to kick him but he held my legs tightly around him. I felt my energy depleting, resulting in me to groan in frustration. I caught a side mirror in the house and didn't notice myself. I stared in horror at the woman I was becoming.

I was so angry and tired of the world that I didn't realize I had no one.

When he opened the door and sat me down on the stoop I began to cry.

My heart was bleeding and mangled from all of the death and bad news. I really couldn't take it any more.

"Oh so now you crying? Come on Dow what happened to you being a gangsta, I thought you were going to stab me?"

I looked into those almond eyes and felt my heart split in half. My baby is going to look like this beautiful man.

"I just want to go back to how it was before I met you, I miss my grandmother voice and her laugh. I took her for granted and now she'll never know that I did appreciate her."

"Dow-"

"I made all of these decisions because I was acting like a stubborn child and now she's fucking gone. I have no one! Do you understand how Fucking lost I feel. I should really end it all."

"You want to end it for real?"

"I tried before." I shrug his question off.

"Here." He said handing me his gun

"End it all."