My Step Brother | L.S |

Chapter 35

Louis POV

   I watch my mom dance with her fiancé on the dance floor. This was the happiest I've ever seen her be. "She seems really happy" Zayn says standing next to me drinking his champagne.

    "She is, after all I put her through she really deserves happiness." He puts his arm around me.

   "Really proud of you bro" I watch as the twins join them. Zayn takes his arm off of me and, sighs. "So, tomorrow is Harry's graduation?" I nod taking a sip out of my cup.

    "An-d are you gonna go?" He says sipping his champagne looking at me from the corner of his eyes. I keep looking at the people dancing. I sighed shaking my head. "Why not weren't you two like really close buds?"

    I don't say a word and, just look at him with a straight face.

    "Okay...shouldn't of brought it up..." he says pretending to drink his champagne even thought it was empty. I wanted to forget about everything that happened at Manchester. To forget I have to lie and say to myself that it was the worst experience of my life moving there in the first place and, that I hate everybody. I want to forget everything even Harry.

      "I have this family to look after now, I'm gonna try my best to not disappoint then like I did in the past." My guilt of the past will always stay forever with me nothing could make it go away. I still remember the look in my moms eyes when I came home beat up. I sold drugs to support my mom and dad, I spent most of my days working multiple places.

    My mom never told my dad about me working all the time and, I really thank her for that. But, when she came out as bi something clicked and made me see my mom a different way she no longer looked like the giving pure mother she disgusted me. I remember about the bad things that my dad, my friends and the people around said about bi people.
     They said bi doesn't make a difference from being gay and, that if I even looked at her I might turn out as one or my children will turn out gay.

      I regretted every word I said to her that night. Seeing her so happy makes me want to cry. I ruined half of her life with my bad choices and, believing in what others had to say. Zayn grabs my hand and starts heading to the dance floor. "H-hey! I don't wanna dance"

    "We aren't gonna dance...yet" He talks to the dj and grabs the mic from him. "Can I have everybody's attentions please?"

    "My brother here has a few words for the loving wife." He smirks and hands me the mic and then stands next to me. I glare at him and he just stand there with a smug look on his face . I clear my throat everybody is quiet and has their eyes on me. This is awkward.

    "Where to begin.." I say smiling at her. "First of all congratulations I am really happy for you I'm glad to see you smiling again, I'm really sorry mum." Everyone was quiet, there is so much I want to say.

"Being in Manchester made me think about my life and how it was to live with out you, and honestly I felt lonely without you there."  My eyes were getting teary.

   "I was scared...I was scared being away from you, I didn't mean any of the things I said to you back then. I should of accepted you in the first place, you raised me, you feed me, you looked after me you did so many things for me but, in the end I turned on you." I didn't even care if the people were hearing this, I just needed to get everything out.
    Doesn't even matter if people saw me as a shitty person it was who I was or who I truly am. "It's not bad to fall in love with someone the same gender, and I've should of realized it early..." because I know how it feels to fall in love with someone the same gender.

     "You are truly an angel, every time I cried to you or talked back to you...you've never yell at me or hit me..." I was gonna continue but, she started crying. I ran to her and hugged her. "I love you mom, please forgive me" she hugged me back.