My Step Brother | L.S |

Chapter 6

At school Louis didn't talk to me. I was in my usual table by myself with my friends empty chairs. There nice things they don't talk much. I had to bring myself to school and, take myself back home. After school Louis would always go to his friends Zayns house, didn't come home till late night with red eyes and laughing for no reason but when ever he saw me his smile will drop and he'll walk into his room with chips and a pop.

Later that day I ran home, happy to be away from school. I walk in my bathroom locking the door, I walked over to Louis closet quietly opening it then started searching and find pills. They weren't mine but, they'll do. I grabbed them shoving them in my backpack.

I fix his closet making it look like it was before. I close it then turn around grabbing my backpack walking out. I start walking down stairs where my mum and Louis we're. I slowly walk over to my mom, who was reading a magazine drinking tea. We haven't talked since my blow up which was days ago.

"You hungry?" I shook my head scrolling through my phone. "You sure? want tea?" I look up at her.

"No, am sure" I gave her a small weak smile. She smiled back and got up to get another drink. I looked down to my wrist and saw my cuts, the habit started again. I just can't stop cause it feels so good.

But, am also disappointed in myself. Do I regret cutting? of course not. Cutting is the only way I slove my problems, sounds stupid right not really. I pull down my sleve covering my cuts. I saw Louis come in and sit infront of me.

What I found really weird is that Louis still does things for me. isn't he supposed be calling me names hating me for being gay I mean the guy is a homophobic!

Louis opens the door for me, he checks on me every night. Everyday he will come in my classroom during fourth-quarter his always looking at me everytime he is in that class, I don't know if his checking to see if Avery does anything to me. I heard he got in a fight in gym class cause a guy was making fun of me. That day he came with a bruised lip and cheek.

Maybe he isn't a homophobic...I have to admit it I missed him probably even more then anything. Weird to say that about your sibling especially if there you're step. Dusty is the only one that keeps me company. "Mum is there anymore lemonade?" She shook her head.

"Am sorry honey Louis took the last bottle" I look at Louis. He was about to open the bottle but stopped and moved it infront of me.

"T-thanks..." My mum sat between us. "Mum"

"what is it honey?" Louis got up.

"I have to go" He kissed my mum's cheek. "Love you guys" Guys, does that mean me too?

"Okay, come back early love you too" He walked out. She looked at me "And you were saying?"

"I-I think am ready...I want to come out to my new family" Even though Louis already knows. "If they don't accept me, then am okay with that I could just move out or something. But, I don't want to be hiding anymore"

"If that's what you wanted then am okay with that. But, if they don't accept you let me be the one to talk to them or leave him" She rubbed my back. "There's no way I'll let my son move out just for that."

"Thanks mum" She hugged me.

"How about we all get tougher and have a dinner tomorrow?"

"Sounds great" I wasn't afraid to come out or anything. I was going to try and be confident, come out. Try not to care I'll try not to. Am still going to be gay and proud cause that's me. But, it's school that brings all my confidence down.

I get up and walk to my room pulling out my laptop.

Avery; even your big brother is a homophobic. See how many people hate faggots like you! You are a total disgust to the world, no one Will ever love you. You will grow up old without being loved, we all know you will so we don't understand why your still here! go hang yourself, die from a overdose, cut your wrist million of times ! just get the fuck out of our lifes!

I look at my backpack,
Die from an over dose !

I reach in my bag and pull out the pills. I put some on my palm of my hand. I stare at them for awhile thinking about everything my mind was full with hate calling me worthless I close my teary eyes before popping them in my mouth.

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Harry wasn't open the fucking door. Parent's went out to a party or something and Harry wasn't opeing the door. That kid always sleeping early, I search through my Avengers backpack and found the key. I open the door and get in I drop my backpack.

I walk up stairs, I go in Harry's room to check on him like always. I saw he was turned facing the wall, and his laptop was on. I pick up and read the message from Avery. As I read it I felt like I was about to snap his laptop in half, how could someone tell Harry such a horrible things! I look at Harry, I shook him he didn't move. "Harry" He didn't move.

"Ha-" I lost my words once I saw an empty bottle of pills next to him. "No, no!" I pick him and take him to the bathroom making him vomit. He started gagging, I take him to the sink washing his mouth. I carry him back to his bed, he began sobbing. I just held him in my arms comforting him.

"Am so sorry Louis...am sorry" I run my hand through his hair.

"Sh-Harry calm down..." He held on to me tight. I stayed hours up comforting him. I didn't mind at all, all I wanted was to make Harry feel better. I wasn't even going to argue with him, he broke a promise I know that. But, I also knew he couldn't do it and I've been such a dick. He needed my attention but I didn't give him any. I was beginning to fall asleep with Harry in my arms. I had to stay awake for any reason. I just couldn't hold it any longer.

The next morning I woke up early making Harry tea. I brought it him up stairs, I was holding dusty sitting next to Harry. It was silent, but not awkward. "Louis...I-I am really sorry....for breaking my promise"

"It's okay...really it is. All that I care about right now is you, all I want is for you to be safe"

"Y-your not disgusted of me? am gay...your a homophobic" I shake my head holding his hand.

"Am not a homophobic, I let the other people take advantage of me I let them speak for me. I never got to know someone who was interested in the same gender as themself, I let people's words take over in my mind like my dad. But, when I meet you there was no difference between gay and straight it's just a sexuality, if your interested in guys it's okay...cause gay is okay." He smiled at me. "You're my brother, and I have to love you no matter what were family"

"Even if I don't show it you know I'll always love you" His smile faded.

"You don't love me..." He brought his knees to his chin. "You don't like me as a brother, you don't love me at all"

"What?"

"I over heard you and your dad talk...y-you said you didn't like me as a brother, that Zayn was your real brother and am never going to be your brother" His says in a soft voice. I shouldn't be thinking about my brother like this but his so beautiful. Never thought I would say that about my step-brother!

What's wrong with me?

"I didn't mean it"

'Then why did you say it..." He had tears in his eyes. "You're the first person that had ever cared about me besides my mum ...you're the only one that I have to call an actual friend" It hit me hard in the chest.

"This relationship with you means so much to me..." I hug him. It's lottie all over again except I had a different feeling around Harry. "It's important to me that I don't want to lose it."

"And you're not, am sorry for being a dick to you ignoring you. I didn't realize how important our relationship meant to you" He laid his head on my chest. "I love you"

"I-I love you too..."

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Short short I know , I'll try and make it longer. ran out of ideas !