I Loved You First || danisnotonfire

twelve - Confessions

I kept my earbuds in my ear and quite loudly sing along to Nirvana, doing air guitar and using a hairbrush as a microphone.

I was getting ready for Tyler's party, and I had the room to myself as Phil had went to the store for some body wash or something.

As I shouted out another lyric, the door opened and Phil walked in with a bag of body wash and shampoo products.

"C'mon, the party thing starts in like an hour or two," Phil told me.

I nod, turning off my music and taking my earbuds out, grab the body wash and close the door behind me to the bathroom.

After the shower, I blow dry my hair and realize everything is out in the bedroom.

I open the door a crack and stick my head out.

"Phil," I call out.

He turns around and looks at me, "What?"

"Give me both my bags," I tell him.

"What's the magic word?" He teases.

"Want me to go to a party naked, Phil?" I respond.

His protective older brother powers go off and he quickly hands me both of my bags.

I curl my hair and pull a dress over my head. About an hour later, I walk out the bathroom and sit on my bed.

"Ten billion hours later," Phil says, walking into the bathroom and closing the door behind him.

"Shut up!" I shout through the door.

30 minutes later, Phil is done and we walk to Dan and Savvy's.

Savvy opens the door, looking at least 30 times better than me, and I silently loathe her at the same time as I admire her.

"Oh my gosh, Fiona! You look so cute!" She exclaims, moving out the way for us. I walk past her and Dan smiles and waves.

"We're ready," he tells us, lacing his other shoe.

We catch a bus down to Tyler's hotel, and he opens the door.

"Oh hey!" He exclaims.

"Hi Tyler!" I respond, hugging him tightly.

"How's my girl?" He asks.

"Fantastic!" I say with a giggle.

"Great, come in, wait, who's this?" He asks, pointing at Savanna.

"My names Savvy, I'm Dan's girlfriend, nice to meet you Tyler," she formally says.

Tyler gasps, quickly looking from her to me and back again.

"Oh my gosh Dan, you never tell me these things boy!" Tyler exclaims, Dan awkwardly nods and smiles.

Tyler walks from the door and te others walk in and close the door behind them. Dan, Savvy, and Phil wander off quickly, and I'm left alone.

I find the girls quickly, and they question me on if Savvy was here or not.

"Yeah, follow moi," I tell them wondering off to find Savanna.

"But like, what if she's with Dan and they're like, um," Tanya says, and I quickly understand what she's talking about.

"I've already seen in plenty times, so I'll stay ahead and if they're snogging, I'll give you a signal, if not then we just go up to them," I tell her. Tanya nods and we continue looking for Savvy.

Savanna is stood chatting to Phil and Dan about something, and I point towards her.

"That's Savvy," I tell them.

"She's pretty!" Tanya exclaims.

I nod my head, and the girls all shuffle past me to meet her.

I walk in the opposite direction of them to find something to drink.

After getting something, I sit on an empty couch, and take out my phone while holding my head back and taking a long swig of my drink. 

I feel the couch dip next to me, and I see Dan next to me.

I look over him to see if Savvy was trailing behind him as always,  but surprisingly it's just him.

"Hey Dan," I say.

"Hi Fiona," he responds, drinking from his bottle.

We sit in silence for a bit after that, until Dan starts talking again.

"You don't like Savanna do you Fiona?" He asks out of the blue.

I quickly start to panic, "W-what? Yeah, of course I like Savvy, she's great!" 

"I know you don't, why don't you?" He asks.

I take another long sip of my drink before answering, "Because Dan, I miss us. I miss the days when it was just you, Phil, and I. I miss it when Savvy wouldn't follow you everywhere you went. I hate the fact that there's no more us time and whenever we talk it's only about Savanna."

"I'm sorry Fiona-" he begins, but I cut him off and continue.

"You know what I hate most Dan? How fucking perfect she is. You know how envious I am of her? She gets you and just about every other guy in the universe. I'd kill to be her. You know what else I hate? You'd believe her over me in a heart beat. Even though I've known you much longer than her, she's lied to you before, and broken your heart, you still believe her over me," I stop there, because I can't believe I'm finally able to get all of this off of my chest, with help from a bit of alcohol.

"Fiona, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I fell in love. Do you want me to be sorry for that? Because fine, I guess I'm so sorry for falling in love with someone. I love Savanna, and I can't really say I've ever fallen in love, so I don't know what to do, I'm sorry," he responds.

 "I get that Dan, I really do, but still. I feel like you've just been almost avoiding me and Phil like the plague ever since you got together with Savanna. And when it's not that, Savanna's with you all the time, and then you both snog and cuddle in front of me, and play footsie like you're in primary, I hate it," I say.

"It almost sounds like you're jealous," Dan states.

"Maybe because I am," I respond.

"Wait what?" Dan asks, looking at me.

I take the final swig of my drink and nod, "I'm jealous of you and Savanna, Dan."

"Oh, sorry Fiona," Dan apologized.

"It's fine, you were bound to find out eventually," I answer.

"I'm honestly really sorry," he says, chewing on his lip.

I nod, turning my head toward the wall.

We stay in silence for a while until Dan hugs me from behind.

"I'm sorry Fiona. We still are friends aren't we?" He asks. 

I slowly nod, "Of course we are."

Savvy comes over and taps on Dan's shoulder.

"Dan babe, want to dance with me?" She asks.

Dan lets go of me and looks at me then Savvy. He shakes his head.

"Not now Savanna, maybe later," he tells her, glancing back at me.

And I can't help the uncontrollable grin that takes over my face.

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dedicated to @Beckyisaleopard bc seriously she helped me with this omfg she's perf