I Loved You First || danisnotonfire

Feel Free To Hate Me

Okay. Hi.

This isn't an update. 

Yeah, I'm still working on that. Not really, I've been procrastinating as per usual. 

I'm coming clean and confessing I haven't really been doing shit on this account except for starting pointless fanfics and changing my username and icons. 

Also, I've been reading MCR Fanfics, and I've sort of been inspired to sort of...make one?

Okay, okay I'm sorry. It's not up yet but um yeah...

I've sorta, not been into writing YouTube fanfics much anymore. Mostly from the severe hate my mom and grandmother have for me spending all my time on the internet. 

So um...oh yeah. I've considered deleting this or discontinuing it, I'm not sure yet. I'll update you on that later most likely. 

Now, if you have read most of my longer completed stories (if you have, sorry. if you haven't, don't) then you know that all my major stories usually come to this point. And I usually get over it but uh...it's hard to get out of this one because I'm moving on from YouTube Fanfics and I don't want to. 

I don't want to move to anything else because I've met so many wonderful people here and done so many wonderful things. I love waking up in the morning and after posting an update reading the comments and looking at the votes. I love interacting with you all and replying to comments (i need to do that more) and all that. 

But it's hard now, and I feel like I'm forcing myself to continue, and I want to be happy. I'm sorry. 

God, I sound like Connor Franta while I write this...

If anything, I don't want to give you all forced updates. I don't want you to feel bad that I'm just forcing myself to update and feeling like it isn't my best work. I don't want you to hate me for giving a shitty update. 

I can't write. I can't. Not on here, anyway. Many other ideas are sprinkling in my head. 

If you didn't know either, I have a lot of other fanfics that aren't on this account. I have two joined accounts, a parody account, a 5sos account, a actual story account, and a miscellaneous account.

And I have inspiration to write on a few of those. I'm sorry I'm doing this to you, but I'm going on hiatus. 

This is going up on all my other stories, but with different explainations. 

If you want to reach me, below is my kik and other things I'm active on. (bolded are the things I use often)

kik : haygurlzhay
tumblr(s) : peasantspray.tumblr.com ; fabulouskilljoynoise.tumblr.com (i'm still working on this one, so i should be on it a lot.) ; wifiphobia.tumblr.com ; itsnotkurtcobain.tumblr.com 
wattpad(s) : inutero, nirvana-jpg, 19thcentury, haygurlzhayarchive, justimaginethings, idontreallyevenknow
twitter : queennovelli 
gmail : queen.iyana02@gmail.com   

Once again, I'm sorry. But I'll be back. Soon hopefully. 

I promise.  

PS - I actually only ended up putting this on my 'Updates And Other Stuff Story'.

PPS - I might actually still be on this account reading and voting for stories and replying to inboxes and message board messages. Just not as frequently as usual.