Isaac's POV
"What do you mean you're leaving?" I almost yelled
I was starting to lose my mind. This was unbelievable.
Everything was perfect, what the hell happened?
"Isaac, calm down, it's got nothing to do with you and me" Drake said putting his hand on my shoulder
"How is it not about us? You're leaving me for god's sake!" I said frustrated
I turned around and took a few steps around. I ran both my hands through my hair pulling softly at the end.
"I'm not leaving you" He said trying to reassure me that out relationship would still be going.
See, if he was just leaving, and coming back I wouldn't mind. The problem is; I'm not sure if he's coming back. He doesn't want to tell me where he's going or why. And I can't stop thinking about the many reasons that he might be leaving, and it's tearing me apart
"You're leaving, not telling me where you're going or why. I don't know when you're coming back. I don't know anything. How the hell am I supposed to know that you're not using this as an excuse to dump me?" I said, frustration written all over my face and tone.
I hated the fact that hot tears started to rise, making their way to my eyelids. I hated the fact that he was acting so calm about it, like it was nothing. I hated the fact that I believed all his lies before, that he loved me and that we would be together forever. He said we'd have a family someday. We'll get to see our kids grow up. We'll turn into grandparents and grow old together. How could I let him fool me with his sweet talks?
"You just have to trust me, Isaac" He said with a soft sigh as he walked closer to me. He took my right hand in his and stared me in the eyes for a few moments before talking.
"I am not leaving you" He said again, which only made it worse for me. Every time he said those words, I would think of the exact opposite. I could feel the tears rushing down my cheek.
Damn it.
I didn't want to break down at a time like this. Not in front of him at least. Sure, he has seen my worst side before, and I've seen his, but we had promised each other to leave that behind. And here I was going back to old habits.
I was having those thoughts again. Suicidal thoughts. You might think that I'm crazy or pathetic for wanting to die just because this guy wants to leave me, but you don't know the half of it. He's the only thing that's keeping me alive. And I'm not just saying that from some quote or song lyrics, I honestly and truly mean it. I was ready to give up a long time ago, but Drake made me change my mind.
He made me want to live again.
He made me regret wanting to die.
