Treebros One shots ( Connor x Evan )

Memories

Angst yo guys! Em sorry but I cried when I got this idea...G luck!

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~Evan's POV~

Flashbacks went in my head, while I was trying my best to concentrate in class. I was just looking outside our window, it was filled with trees. It only reminded me so much about me and Connor...

~Flash Back~

We were walking through the forest together, it was our 5th date. We were already together, happy with each other. At least that's what I thought. We held hands as we walked farther and farther. We stumbled across an amazing tree.

"Hey, Look at this Connor! This is a very beautiful tree...The branches branch out perfectly. It's amazing." I said holding the tree trunk. "Yes it is." Connor replied looking at me. I noticed that he was pointing at me and not the tree. "I said the tree is beautiful, not me." I laughed. "Yeah, but you're beautiful and perfect." He said as he quickly hugged me.

We decided to just stay beside that amazing tree and just enjoy the view as time pass by. In the end...Every time we both have problems we would meet up on that same tree and talk about our problems, we would cry, laugh,get mad, we basically did almost everything together on that tree.

We enjoyed each other's company, just being together, made our problems go away.

But what I didn't know...Is that I was only talking about my problem. He never really told me his true problems. He would only vent out some, but not all. I couldn't help him.

~End of Flashback~

After school I decided to go to that tree, again. It has been a while since I was back there. Ever since Connor...He...He...I can't say this right now...

I walked to that same tree and vent out my problems. Practically shouting already, nobody was there to hear me so I was free to do whatever. 

"HOW COULD YOU! YOU...YOU LEFT ME HERE ALONE BY MYSELF!" I screamed, tears streaming down my face. 

"YOU SAID YOU WERE FINE! YOU SAID, YOU WERE ALRIGHT JUST BEING WITH ME. YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT YOU WERE LIKE THIS...YOU...You...You didn't have to...do...that." I was sobbing, regret and guilt filled my head.

"Sorry...I should've...I should've been there for you. I wasn't good enough. I didn't observe enough, I was too focused on myself the whole time that I wasn't inspecting anything...I just wish...I just wish you at least could've given me a clue..." I sat down looking at the branches of the beautiful tree.

I ran my fingers around the carvings on the tree. The letters were written on them were 'E x C' with a heart around it. "I miss you...A lot...I wish I could see you again..." I looked down and noticed a piece of paper that's never been there before. I took it from under the branches.

Those hand writings are familiar...Their..Connor's hand writing

Dear Evan Hansen, 

I love you...So much...I'm sorry, but I can't handle it anymore. I want to be happy for you, I tried my best, but there problems just keep getting worse and worse...I need to escape this hell I'm living in. I need you...I want you...But I'm not sure if you would want me...But Even though I'm a huge mess, I'm always fixed whenever I'm around you. 

You were always there for me, you were there when I needed to cry a lot I would lay my head on your shoulder and you would hug me. With your comfortable sounds of 'it's ok' or 'It'll pass' Don't get me wrong I really love it...

So that's why I wanted to know...Will you marry me? 

I'm writing this, for my future self to be prepared. And in case I forget. 

~Sincerely, Me

So this what Connor's been writing...He never got to tell me this...I started to cry even harder. "YES! YES! I WILL MARRY YOU" I screamed as tears fell harder. "I would give, anything to marry you....YOU HEAR ME? YOU FREAKING HEAR ME CONNOR MURPHY?" I hugged my knees tightly.

"I heard you...I'm sorry Evan..." I heard something..It was the sweet voice of Connor. But how???

"CONNOR!" I screamed as I ran up to him, I realized that I couldn't hug him. It was like he's only imaginary. "I love you Evan...I'm so so sorry...I didn't mean to hurt you..." He said looking down tearing up as well. "I was being so selfish...I didn't think of what would I do to you...I just felt so...me" He continued as he looked at me.

I could almost slap his face right now, because I was so mad at him, but I just wanted to feel him as well. "You...left me here alone...You never let me help you..." I whispered. "I know...I just thought I could handle it myself, that I can prove that I'm strong...For you... It didn't work." He said as he walked closer to me.

"Evan?" He asked. I hummed in response. "Evan?" He asked again, I looked up at him confused. "Evan!" He shouted as  opened my eyes wide.

I woke up to the sound of Connor's voice beside me. "Hey Evan are you ok? You were crying in your sleep...Is something wrong?" He said. I suddenly remembered everything was a dream...That in reality...Connor was still alive...

I hugged him tightly, as if tomorrow will never come. "What Happened?" He asked. "Are you sure you're ok? Please tell me if you have any problems I'm here to help you." I asked immediately, I never wanted to loose him like in my dream.

"...Not really?" He said as he looked around. He was obviously, lying. "Please...Tell me the truth." I said as I kissed his lips. "please?" 

After a while, we both sobbed through his problems and I tried to help him. He was finally venting out. I could prevent everything that happened. My dream was a fake reality. I just hope I can help Connor more.

In the end, he vented everything out. I just hope that's really everything. I don't want him to keep any secrets from me ever again...I love him so much

I would die for him.

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A/N:

YOU GUYS REALLY THINK I WOULD SURVIVE WRITING CONNOR DIE AGAIN? NOPE NOPE NOPE SORRY BUT NOPE 

So it started out sad...and ended up happy? I guess? Heh

So yeah, gotta help Jeremy Heere with homework...bye!