Y try? // Daniel Howell x reader

Chap 5. Smeared Mascara

A/N Note: Here's a small snippit of the last chapter incase you weren't up to date with this.

" Oh Micheal, about that big news you needed to tell me. What was it?" I asked Micheal praying that it would distract my mind from those . . . thoughts.

" Yeah, III'm," He stuttered (end of recap) " I'm breaking up with you,"

 Speechless. That's the only word to describe that moment. I had so many questions.

" What, why?" I stuttered, still confused.

Micheal sighed then replied " Well I've kinda been dating this other girl for about 8 months now, and she found out about you, and forced me to pick one of you guys so . . . yeah,"

I knew I was never good enough.

I hesitated, but stood up. Pushed my chair in and walked straight out of there. My mind had no control over my body. Tears fell down, staining my already rosey cheeks. Smudging my mascara, as my sleek black heels, splashed through the cavitys in the ground, that were filled by water. I kept walking, then it turned it to a run. 

A run away from what though? Michael?  Myself? My fear of being alone, trapped in my own fears and emotions that I have absolutely no control over? 

My journey was soon stopped as I reached a park, that was lit only by a single lamp post and the glimmering moon light. I sat down on the wooden bench that attacked my dress/jumpsuit, with its spikey splinters. My hair was a mess. My outfit was a mess. My makeup was a mess. I was a mess.

Why? Why am I like this? Why do people repulse me? Why am I so damn ugly, and stupid and  . . . Me?  I get it. This is why the bullies beat me up every f***ing day. This is why I hated myself so much, and still do. This is why I only have one damn friend. This is why I have those scars from others, and myself. This is why I want to die.

"Hey," a familiar voice said.

I turned away, so my face wasn't visible to their eyes. He didn't need to see me like this, no one did.

He then took a seat beside me, and I felt his body fall back into the bench. I already knew who it was. Their shadow was tall, and their voice was iconic. It was Daniel Howell.

Dans P.O.V

I usually would never take strolls near midnight, but I had to clear my mind. 

"Bye Phil, I'll be back soon ok. Oh and text me if you need anything," I called out to Phil as I walked out the door.

I knew exactly where I was heading. The park. It was soothing and rarely occupied. I made my way to my usually bench, when it was already taken. I took a few steps closer, but then recognising the lovely Y/H/C hair. 

"Hey," I said not realising the situation Y/N was in. 

She turned her head, facing away from me. I knew something was wrong. I hadn't seen her face but I could just tell she had been crying. I took a seat beside her on the bench hoping she wouldn't mind. I then laid my head back and took my view to the glisining moon and shining stars. 

"What's wrong?" I asked wishing for a reply.

I turned back to my position before. Resuming my stargazing marathon. Pondering about the worlds around us.

A few minutes after Y/N said " This is kinda awkward but, my boyfriend," she stuttered " my boyfriend just broke up with me," 

I was shook.

Did she have a boyfriend? Oh wait he broke up with her. Why would someone break up with Y/N? She was amazing, even though I had only talked to her once. 

My curiosity took over me and I asked " you don't have to tell me but, why? "

She took a deep breath in and started " well long story short, he was cheating on me with another girl for about . . . 8 months. She then found out about me and forced him to chose one of us so yeah,"

In my brain this didn't add up. Why would someone hurt Y/N like this? I then took Y/N hand. She didn't flinch or hesitate, her hand just molded into mine like they were made for each other.

"You shouldn't let anyone treat you like that, ok? Just know that I will always be here for you whenever you need it, even though we have only met once I know that we will be great friends,"

I pulled her into a hug, and she laid her head on me. I felt a smile creep onto her face as she pressed her face against my shoulder.

"Thanks, a lot. But I better get going you know. My roommate probably wants to hear the juicy gossip," She said. Putting on a little performance with her hands.

A smile followed by a snicker appeared on Y/N face. This caused me to laugh, which set off a dominos effect. We then parted and walked back home. The walk home was short, but the whole time there was only one thing on my mind. Y/N.

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