Blood / Joshler

.:Chapter Seventeen:.

.:Tyler:.

Everything was pitch black. Nothing could be seen only the surrounding of the darkness could be seen all around. Four walls of nothingness. Four walls painted black.

A small light could slowly become more visible to the eyesight of one. Slowly walking to the light, things were starting to become clear.

Tyler was dead. Well. Not really dead, just gone enough for him to be in a long deep sleep filled of nothingness but himself and his evil side.

Can one be so stupid to do this? Can one be so selfish enough to commit suicide for their own selfish needs? He Tyler Joesph tried committing suicide because the boy he loved walked out on him.

He tried to commit suicide because life to him was not worth living for anymore. But it is. He has so much to live for but he was selfish enough to go and try and throw away his life.

Suicide is selfish. Yes? But it's also a way to rid the pain you feel inside your mind. Inside your body. Words, thoughts and images eating away at your flesh.

Worthless.

Not good enough.

They will never love you.

Crawling up your spine. Running through your veins and into your blood stream.

Selfish little boy. Trying to leave the one you love for your own very needs.

Suicide is never the key no matter how much it is wanted. It hurts the people around you even when you feel like it wouldn't. It breaks families. Ruins friends. All for what? The sensation of death because you don't want to live anymore.

Josh cries himself to sleep at night at the side of the one he loves wishing. Hoping he wakes up soon so he can tell him how he truly feels.

Tyler can sense this. He hates it. He wishes he never did what he did. He wants to hug him and tell him everything is going to be okay but it won't.

He wants to be a better person. He wants to change but that will never happen.

Tyler has laid here in this bed for three months living off a life support. Only being able to keep it on from the amount of money he has.

He senses Josh get up. He hears the faint words of; "Goodbye Tyler, remember I will always love you."

He feels warm lips press against his very cold ones. Wanting so badly to kiss him back but only being stuck in this same limp position in this horrible hospital bed.

He feels a tear of his beloved one roll down his cold pale face before he hears the sound of the hospital door shut.

Josh has left. Never to come back.

Tyler still surrounded by the dark walls and the glimpse of a small bright light, he feels himself begin to cry only managing to allow one tear to roll from his eye.

He hates himself.

He wants Josh. But Josh has gone.

What has he done?

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One more chapter left but there will be a sequel.