I hadn't expected to have so much fun but I was pleasantly surprised at how the night turned out. Gabe wasn't as butthurt as he was acting, and he actually turned out to be really cool underneath his jackass exterior, which was pleasantly surprising as well. The ride back was just full of joking and laughing, and I really enjoyed everyone's company.
By the time we came back up to the apartment, I was extremely tired, but wanted to stay up talking with everybody.
"Guys, I'm gonna get dressed for bed, I'll be back out." Everybody nodded, and Dana followed me to the room. I got in the room and collapsed on the bed, breathing out a sigh of relief. Dana chuckled behind me, coming onto the bed and soothingly combing his fingers through my hair, causing me to get more tired than I already was.
"I know you had fun tonight, and I know the guys really enjoyed hanging out and getting to know you and Chalyiaa better," he said above me. I snorted. "Yeah, especially Cole." Dana laughed a bit, and I turned to face him. "You're right, I've never seen him like this around any girl. In a little amount of time, too." I shrugged and got upright, sitting next to him, and he put his arms around me and laid his chin on top of my head.
"She's very likable, even though her and Cole aren't that much alike. I could understand how they'd like each other, though." I felt him nodding and I got up to get dressed for bed. "Alright, turn around." I told him, and he sighed dramatically before facing his back to me. I quickly got dressed, and told him it was okay to look again. Before I could leave the room, he grabbed my wrist, pinning me with an intense stare I'd never seen from him before.
"Sacha."
I walked a little closer to him, concerned from the look on his face. He laid his hands on my waist, and my hands instinctively came to rest around his neck, and we moved into a mindless slow dance. He leaned down and hugged me a bit, which I returned, before I pulled back, confused.
"Dana, what's going on?" He shrugged. "I love being with you. We don't do anything but lay in bed and hold each other, right now we're dancing with no music, and I'm at peace. I love being with you. You give me a sense of familiarity, security. My heart swells whenever I'm around you, and when I'm not, I wanna be." I looked up into his eyes, which held tears, giving them a shining, glossy appearance.
"Sach, I'm in love with you. I always have been. No matter where I've been, or who I've been around, there was never anybody more important than you. I've been in love with you since the first time I saw you, and even as a kid, I knew that I was gonna love you forever. I'm so in love with you, Sacha Sophia Edwards, that I don't know what to do with myself. I don't think I could live without you, I wouldn't want to, and I don't want to think that I will ever have to." He sniffed, and it wasn't until I blinked and felt a tear run down my cheek, that I knew I was crying as well.
"I messed up so bad with you, and it hurt me like crazy thinking that I'd never get the chance to be this with you, normal again, or anything at all. I didn't want not talking to you to become a reality, especially without you knowing how I felt. I've been going crazy keeping this in, and trying to hide my feelings from you, and I can't do it anymore. I'm so immensely in love with you, and I need you to know it."
By this time, the tears in his eyes had fell, and mine were streaming down my neck. He looked into my eyes pleadingly, a frown etched so far onto his face that my heart broke.
"Please, say something. Please." He begged, his voice breaking. "You don't have to say you feel the same way, especially if you don't, but please talk to me, baby." His voice lowered down to a whisper to the point where I don't know how I understood him. "Say something."
Realizing that it was my turn to speak, I found myself at a loss for words. I couldn't open my mouth and force any sound to come out, my brain had shut down. I didn't know what to say or what to do, but I went with what was pulling in my heart. I pulled my hands from his neck, brought them to his face, and used my thumbs to wipe at his soaking cheeks, hardly ridding them of the many tears that had taken residence upon them. Then I stared into his eyes, so full of pain and love and I just wanted to take it all away. I didn't want my best friend to hurt anymore.
I hugged him, crying into him more than ever, as he embraced me tightly. I pulled back and stared at him once more, before surprising both him and myself. I pulled him towards me.
I kissed him.
A/N: I'm shaking. Bitch I'm shitting myself. Mannnn, let a dude come tell me something like this, I would be DONE FOR. Idk why I even wrote this like there's no guy out there that's even like this but damn, if there were 🤧 anyways next chapter 👍🏾
Never knew the closing of a door, could open up a heart
Since the day we met I needed you, in my life
To do and say the things that I needed to feel and hear
I'm just
Helplessly in love
Don't know what to do, I'm
Helplessly in love
And the love in my heart
Is for you
Reese's Peaces
