Chapter 12
I wake up the next morning to hear Dana texting. I stare at his bare back for a while, before I have to sneeze.
I turn to face the other way in my bed and hold my nose closed, as Dana turns around to face me, before he continues to text again.
He puts his phone down and leaves the room.
As soon as he leaves, I turn back and see my phone. Confused, I pick it up, just as I get a text from Chalyiaa.
'You're right, tell her I'm sorry?'
I grab my phone and head downstairs.
"Dana?" I say, as the smell of bacon floods my nose. I chuckle. Guilt food.
"Hey Sacha. Morning. Do-" I cut him off.
"Were you texting Chalyiaa from my phone?" He turns to look at me as I descend the few stairs to the kitchen. "Well?" I prod. He hesitates, and nods.
"I'm sorry. I just, didn't want you to be upset with yourself when it wasn't your fault. Chalyiaa agreed it wasn't you, and she's not mad at you." I felt tears brimming my eyes, as he tells me.
"She doesn't mean it." I barely whisper. He shakes his head. "She was just in shock." I look down as a tear escapes. "Let's go out today." I nod and head upstairs.
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I slightly smile as I get out of the car. "The park?" I say as I look to Dana. He smiles. The park where we first met. We walk to the swings and sit down.
We began to swing slightly falling in rhythm with each other.
After a while, I speak. "Why did you leave?" I ask, staring forward. I bring my hands up to my ears on the chains, anticipating what he will say. He stares at me for a moment, before facing forward also. He spoke.
"You know how they asked me to come to California after they saw me in kidz bop?"
"Yea."
"Well I was in a boyband for a while."
"Yea, I know."
"I decided to leave. For you. I missed you and I came back. Nobody really liked my decision, and my bandmates were kinda angry with me, and still want me to come back. But I told them no for you."
"Why did you stop calling?" I ask after keeping my mouth shut for a while. "I got busier. And I figured you did too, with Kenny and all. I thought you moved on with your life and, you know; Forgot about me too," I turn to him now. "Dana, I could never forget about you. You were my first and best friend. It would hurt too much." Tears brimmed his eyes as I spoke.
I could feel my own tears sting at my corners. I turn back to face forward, as did he. "How's life?" He spoke.
I wiped at a tear. My voice was thick. "I missed you. I started cutting around the 6 grade right after you left cuz I thought it was me. I needed you there."
"People teased me, which basically made me reinvent myself so I could be popular, and not get bullied. I met Chalyiaa then."
"It started to gradually get worse again, and I started to cut. Then Kenny came along, the rest is history."
"Then Chalyiaa's grandmother died. She was so broken. Instead of leaving like everyone, though, I stayed. Because she was there for me, so I thought it would only be right." I peek over to him, he nods. "Where does that leave me?" I shrug.
"Wherever, I guess. I haven't really figured how I felt in all this. Everything kinda went by ridiculously fast I didn't have the breath to keep up."
"I want to though. I just can't."
Dana nods when I peek again. We sit in silence.
A/N: so one) I wasn't gonna update today. I wasn't really in the mood, I was kinda upset, so I almost didn't. Two) I almost forgot to update. I took a nap and forgot then I remembered when I finished writing the chapter. Anyways, I might wanna update later this week. It's my last full week of school I think, so, yea. But love you guys, thanks for reading this far! You're the best!!!
And your love is the best thing that I got
And it's only just begun, but it's never gonna stop
The best thing, best thing that I got
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