Living with the Jedi order can be the easiest or the hardest task you could ever have. . .it all depends on the choices you make, what you believe, and if you have what the council is looking for.
I remember when I first assembled my lightsaber alongside those I called friends. I remember the glow of that purple lightsaber on my cheeks and the excitement in my master's eyes when I couldn't wait to show her. I remember dueling my competitors, but I also remember laughing about our little mistakes during a practice battle. I remember the innocence in the other's eyes that were identical to mine.
But it doesn't matter at this point in my life. No one cares to know what my happiness was focused on and how it brought me where I was today.
I was and still am the top of my class to this day. . .and yet, I am not a Jedi Master. . .yet. The council and my master continue to tell me to be patient with the force and I shall receive my reward, but at times my mind is so clouded and I fall two steps back.
But I swore to myself and everyone around me that I will be the greatest Jedi Master in my time. No matter how long it takes. . .
"You're slouching. . ." My master lightly slapped a stick against my spine. I sat up straight and kept my eyes gently shut. "You're thinking too hard, I can hear everything. . .silence your mind."
"If you think it's loud in your ears, you can't imagine how deafening it is in my head." I huffed and rolled my eyes with them continuing to be shut.
"Silence! Think of peace and quietness, white, purity, innocent." I immidiately think back into my past, those innocent eyes of the children. . .how everything was so peaceful. . .but then I remember the bloodshed and the screams. My Master let out a frustrated groan. "Enough! I suppose we can start again tomorrow, you are dismissed." I hurried out of the room and into the hall where many young Jedi ran the halls in search of something.
"Were you eavesdropping again, Kenobi?" I rolled my eyes and began walking as my best friend rushed after me.
"I'd like to use the term 'in the right place at the right time'." He smiled sheepishly beside me. I laughed and nudged his shoulder. "Do you want to practice? I hear we have an upcoming test next week." I sighed and rubbed my head, I already had a headache forming.
"I'm so sick and tired of tests and studying and practicing. I shouldn't even need to practice!" I felt like punching a wall, but I breathed deeply and controlled my anger. "I just want to sleep, I'm sure I don't need practice, I just need rest, I'll see you later, Obi."
. . .
"You will be placed in groups of two and face off in a duel between one another. No rules, but fight fair." The master spoke wisely before pairing us off. I unknowingly glared at the floor and wasn't aware I seemed angry. "Calm down, young Padawan. . .Anger can be distracting." I snapped out of my daze.
"Yes, Master." I answered immidiately with a nod. I gripped my lightsaber tightly as the master placed Obi-Wan in front of me. "Hello, friend." I smiled.
"Are you ready, (Y/N)?" Obi-Wan smirked and readied his lightsaber. I released my saber as well and smiled.
"I am always ready." I had a mischeveous look in my eyes while waiting for the word to start our test. I placed myself in the normal fighting stance.
"Begin!"
I swung my purple lightsaber towards Obi-Wan's blue lightsaber.
. . .
We fought for what seemed like five minutes, but had been a total of twenty three minutes. I breathed heavily as my foot softly hovered above Obi's chest so I don't crush him. My lightsaber was about two inches from searing the skin of his neck.
"Good job, I knew you had it in you." He huffed as I smirked tiringly.
"It was a good fight, Obi-Wan." I held my hand out and he took it. We both smiled at each other for a good five minutes before I turned away with a blush beginning to form among my cheeks. "I'll s-see you later, Obi. I bowed and left it stand by my master.
"You did excellent, (Y/N). I'll give you the week to have a break. But after that you'll have to study harder for your finals. Because finals will focus on your mental state. You need a while to relax your mind." My master smiled down at me. I bowed and thanked her before running to my room to change out of my robes and into more relaxing clothes. I've never had this long of a break so I'm going to cherish it.
"(Y/N)! Wait up!" I heard Obi-Wan run up to me again and I turned to face him. "Did your master give you a break, as well?" He asked as I smiled and nodded my head rapidly with happiness. "Come with me, I want to show you something." He didn't give me a chance to tell him I wanted to change, but I let it slide. I giggled as he ran while tugging on my hand.
"Where are we going, Obi-Wan?" I laughed, out of breath. He only shushed me and ran outside as the sun was setting. It was beautiful.
"Watch the sunset with me." He pulled me to the edge of a hill and sat us down. We both watched the blues, yellows, pinks, and oranges mix and tug at each other. I sat in awe and from time to time I felt Obi-Wan's stare on my reaction. The colors soon turned to dark blues and purples.
"That was beautiful, Obi-Wan." I smiled and hugged his waist. "Thank you for sharing this with me." He hugged me back reluctantly, but hugged me tightly after a few seconds. I know the rules about not loving another Jedi, but I couldn't control myself in this moment. . .
