His chokers, his black and red revenge sweater, his dreads, his tattoos, his dark eyes. His sadness, anger, happiness. I missed it all. I needed it all. Jahseh left that night and I haven't seen him since. He hasn't even come home. It's only been a day and a half though. Am I loosing him? Did I already loose him? I pick up my phone and text Ski.
Me: Hey ski, where's Jahseh?
Ski❤️✌🏼: Ay gurl. He at my house hidin out
Me: Can I come see him. Don't tell him
Ski❤️✌🏼: You're always welcome sis
I put down my phone and grab a pair of tights and a lace crop top from my closet and head to the shower.
After I'm down my shower and everything I head to Skis. He doesn't really live too far away, which is cool. I don't even know what to say to Jahseh. I'm nervous as hell. I pull up to Skis house and park at the end of the driveway. I don't even knock, I just walk in.
"Ay Kenn." Ski calls from the living room.
"Ay." I smile at him as I set my purse on the couch. "About the other night with Jahseh.."
"Listen. That ain't none of my business and I ain't one to judge. Y'all do your thing and leave me out." He chuckles. I smirk and nod.
"Where is he?"
"Out in the back."
I make my way to the backyard, cautiously. I stop at the big sliding glass doors and look out. I see Jahseh sitting in the grass, his back to the doors. I quietly step outside and approach him. He doesn't even look at me as I sit down beside him. He barely comprehends that I'm there.
"Jahseh I'm sorry." I say after a few minutes of silence. I follow his gaze to the tall white fence surrounding the yard. "We hadn't talked in so long. I thought it was over. Well whatever it was. I didn't even know what we were doing. Jahseh you never told me anything."
Jahseh keeps staring ahead so I keep talking.
"I want to be with you. I want to be your girlfriend. That sounds so gay. Deadass. I'm sorry. I need you. And I know you need me. All you had to do was tell me and I'd be yours. All you have to do is let me know. Put in effort. Why don't you want me?"
Jahseh looks at me with a blank expression.
"I never said I didn't." He mumbles.
"It don't look like you do. You don't talk to me. You don't even try to talk to me. You go around with other girls, doing god knows what. I just want to be enough, you know? All these bitches falling in love with you and I can't compete."
"You don't have to compete. God damnit. I want you! Just fucking you! You're beyond stupid Mckenna. I ain't playing games with you. I'm not into any one else." Jahseh says, raising his voice a little. "What do I have to do?"
"Just ask me!" I shout. I feel like crying. Jahseh really gets to me. Makes me feel like a pussy ass.
"Be my girlfriend." He demands.
"Okay." I shake my head.
He looks back to the fence and stares. So do I.
"You've broken me so many times." Jahseh says quietly after a while. "You don't mean to, You don't even notice."
I look at him confused.
"What do you mean?"
