Every other founding father (A Hamilsquad x reader story)

You will be found

I can't feel anything. My mind swarms with questions as I float in a black abyss, there is no beat no melody. I don't know what happened, all I can remember is four faces and being shot. I have to be dead, right? I hear a voice far away yet familiar. "Are you alright miss?" I look around not being able to find anyone, and start to feel sick. My stomach churns as tears prick my bloodshot eyes. How could I be so blind, why didn't I fight like I was told, how could I just leave the people I loved like I did. Questions flood through my head that I knew would never be answered. I feel sad, guilty, and angry at myself as I start to let all those feelings build up. I want to go back I want to do something to get rid of theses rage filled demons clawing at my brain.
Then I do the only thing that seems sensible, I scream. I just want it all to go away. My past, my loneliness, my fears. I want to erase myself from the narrative but, I can't.
Have you ever felt like nobody was there?
Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere?
Have you ever felt like you could disappear?
Like you could fall, and no one would hear?
I feel warmth on my skin as I faintly smell the scent of cinnamon and vanilla. I open my eyes gasping for air as light floods my vision. I look around seeing my bedroom in the same way I left it only a chair sits next to my bed. I lift up my shirt to see the wound on my stomach had a bandage on it made of thick gauze and medical tape. I close my eyes and breath out sighing in relief as I am given a second chance at life. I hear shuffling outside my door and look up to see Alexander carrying a cup of coffee and a piece of toast. He looks at me in shock rushing to my side and hugging me telling me how much I was missed.
Well, let that lonely feeling wash away.
Maybe there’s a reason to believe you’ll be okay.
‘Cause when you don’t feel strong enough to stand.
You can reach, reach out your hand.
"Alexander, how am I here?" I ask quietly as he pulls away "After the war the British surrendered, we found you on the battlefield unconscious. We took you to doctors and they said they couldn't do much so, I traveled here to your time period and took you to a hospital."
And oh, someone will coming running.
And I know, they’ll take you home.
He says handing me the toast and coffee. I look at him and smile, happy to be home and happy to have food for the first time in days. I stand up and put my dishes in the sink before going and taking a shower. Once I was done I changed into gray jeans and a black sweatshirt that had the word CREEPS on it written across the chest in bright green (get my refrence?). Alexander had gotten a job at a coffee shop so he could buy new clothes and food while I, I lost my job. Apparently me being gone for so long wasn't okay so right now I didn't have a job in New York, but I did have one in Washington DC. I sigh shakily thinking of all the things that were going on in my life, I swear sometimes my life seems fictional. I pick up my laptop and walk downstairs, pulling up YouTube and checking my Skype and Discord. Apparently my mom was worried sick about me since I had a knack for not responding to people and she didn't know if I was okay or not. I chuckle at the fact she asked me if I was alive, well in another time period I'm not but I can't really tell her that now can I? I mess around on my laptop for another 4 hours until I heard the door open and shut. I see Alexander at the door smiling  with a bag of Chinese food. This was nice, knowing I had someone who cared about me.
Even when the dark comes crashing through
When you need a friend to carry you
And when you’re broken on the ground
You will be found.
The rest of the night we talk and laugh. Together. To say that I was happy would be an understatement, there is no other time in my life I needed a friend more than now. He saved me, and I saved him. The way we talked, it feels liked we could go on like this for forever. There's no where else I'd rather be than in the present, here, where I'm happy.
So let the sun come streaming in
'Cause you’ll reach up and you’ll rise again
Lift your head and look around
You will be found.
We later go and see the other guys. This was what I needed. I had never had friends like these, close real friends. They never gave up on me and they cared about me even when I let them down. We hugged and talked about fond memories, the good times, the times that changed my life.
Out of the shadows
The morning is breaking
And all is new, all is new
It's filling up the empty
And suddenly I see that
All is new, all is new
You are not alone
We took John, Laf, and Herc to the present and went out to the park. We messed around and I gave them a little history lesson, I may not have a job right now but I sure as hell can teach our founding fathers about the past. The sun starts to fall as we lay together atop a hill watching the snow fall and the clouds shudder. We watch the stars and enjoy this, this moment all together as one.
Even when the dark comes crashin' through.
When you need someone to carry you.
When you’re broken on the ground
We all walk home once it gets colder outside and we decide it's best if we get rest. I lay in bed knowing my friends are only feet away, but they're close to me and that's all that matters. I listen to the sounds of the city that I had missed so much, it was a sweet melody, a melody that I loved. I smile to myself before letting darkness consume me, it was a calm darkness. Even if I do get caught in a nightmare like I have before I knew one thing. I knew that someone would be there for me, I knew I would be okay.

You will be found.