How I Feel (Poetry)

To Whom It May Concern

I promise I care much more than you think, 

I cherish your smile, the way that you blink, 

If I can't be with you, I'll be there for you, 

And even though she's number one, I'll gladly be number two, 

And I know you don't love me, but I'm getting over you, 

And I know you'll never love me, like I once loved you, 

And you'll never look at me, like you look at her, 

Because we can never have, what you have with her, 

But as long as you're happy, I'm happy too, 

Because a part of me will always love you, 

And even though your heart belongs to another, I'll give you a piece of mine, 

And even when you simply smile, your expression halts time, 

And even though it doesn't matter, you mean so much to me, 

Because your imperfections are perfect, amazing to see, 

But if I can't be with you, I'll find a way to cope, 

As long as you're happy, I'll drop my hope, 

I'll repeat that you'll never love me, and stop deceiving my own heart, 

Because you want her not me, we were born to be apart, 

I'll continue to suppress my feelings, push them far away, 

And maybe I'll reminisce, on a distant rainy day, 

Lock my feelings in a box, and never show you the key, 

Because I can't let you know, how hard it is for me, 

I see you with her, someone else to make you smile, 

And I stand here aching, regretful all the while, 

But I know I can't be selfish, I'd always put you before me, 

Because I owe you an awful lot, and you deserve much more than me, 

And I know we'll still be friends, because you'll never know my heart, 

Or the pain I hide in my eyes, or the grief that tears me apart, 

And I'll never let you know, how weak I am for you, 

I'd rather keep it hidden, than risk losing you, 

And I know I'm not yours and never will be, 

But you'll always be mine, in a fantasy. 

And my heart is still hurting, but one day I'll heal, 

And I hope to feel love for another, like you already feel, 

I'll let go of my desires, knowing we'll never be together, 

But somehow I know, for you I'd wait forever, 

I'll give up on you, because we can never be, 

But deep down in my heart, I know you're everything to me. 

~Jiminy~