Silhouette In The Eclipse

Chapter 5 | Memories

My thoughts were a mess. I was too far gone... I wanted to give up. I wanted to end it, right here, right now. I tried so hard to leave that world behind but now after everything, I just want to end it.

My body was numb from the pain, I couldn't feel anything. I tried to be a fighter. I wanted to survive. Sure they betrayed me but all of the suffering from back home and that damn prophecy, made me want to destroy everything. I should just jump off this cliff, dive into the ocean and die. This body is already dying, I could just speed up the process.

I stood up from the edge and looked at the uncharted waters. Seven years ago, I came to this realm. I ran from my past. Well, I tried running. It turns out, I never ran from it cause it was with me all along. The friends that I had here... I should have known all along, that Ryan, was my brother. Which meant that the others were all in disguise.

"But why should I care, they could all just go burn in hell." Now that I know the truth, I don't care.

"But surely you don't mean that sweetheart."

It was him again. A storm was approaching our direction, the thunderous claps shook the skies. The waves began to thrash violently against the surfaces of the cliffs. The waters were rising and with each crash on the cliff, made its splash onto me. I continued to stare at the ocean. With the storm, the sea, and the wind all combined... soon there would be a hurricane. And as if right on cue. It began to form.

"You came to finish me off. Was the first time not good enough for you?" I didn't need to turn around. He was the reason my body was dying. He remained quiet. So I continued to speak not daring to look him in the eye but instead to stare as the eye of the storm could be seen.

"Was this all worth it? No one cares about how I feel... The dark council, the royal families, all the kingdoms... Why does one soul have to go through so much? What's the use of even talking to you. I tried to run... I tried to hide... you wouldn't understand anything... even if I explained it to you..."

I didn't have much time left. I could feel my life slipping away. I hoped we never meet again. With those last thoughts in my head. I jumped into the ocean. I hit the water with much force. I held my breath, but I couldn't hold it for long. I closed my eyes and I let myself go. This is a good place to die. Once I return to myself, I'll go into the infinity ocean and kill myself once again. The darkness seemed like a good friend now...

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"Do you think it was worth it?" I asked.

"I don't know." He replied

"I don't know what to believe anymore... I want it to end. I want history to stop repeating itself... How much more hurt should we endure?" At this point, the tears began to fall.

"It doesn't matter if history repeats itself. Cause what matters the most is that in every lifetime, I would always find you. I love you and only you for eternity my love" He held me in his arms, whispering the words that always made me fall for him. From the moment I met him, I knew that we were meant to be.

"I love you too my love." After I spoke those words, no other words needed to be spoken after that cause our hearts and body did the talking. He was the light to my darkness and I to his. We couldn't exist without each other and it was a never-ending cycle. And I guess it was sometimes okay... no matter how much pain we went through, we always found each other... no matter what happened.

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Darkness surrounded me in this empty abyss. I was all alone floating in these endless depths. It felt like time was just slipping by. Another dream about them again. A dream about two people and it seemed that in the dreams, I was either a spectator or the girl.