Loosing You

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" I Ava Johnson reject you-" I am cut of by the pain of my heart. It's as if someone is slowly pulling it apart and stabbing it with pieces of glass.

" You can't reject me. The mate bond is too strong, especially since I am the king." Alexander smiles widely at me but his eyes are drowning in mischief and anger.

I can't reject him. A part of me wants to but a bigger part almost shatters into bits and pieces like glass at the thought of loosing him.

I close my eyes and let the tears fall freely now like rain. I'm stuck between wanting something but if I get it then I am slowly destroying myself.

" Don't cry. Please understand me. I'm sorry that you had to find out like this Ava. It's just that I'm afraid someone will take you away from me. I'm afraid you will realize I don't deserve you and will leave." He whispers to me as his warm and large hand cups my cold tear stained cheeks.

" You have to understand that your jealousy is too much. If you want me to be with you than you need to understand that I won't leave you no matter what." I say back to him as I pull away.

" Show me you are changing. Only than I will forgive you." With that I turn around and walk away to my room down the long hallway.

" I will." Is all I hear from him as I open the door to my room and shut it closed. The darkness hides me in its shadows as the moonlight peaks through my windows and shines on my empty bed.

I slide down the door and break down. Tears run down my face like a river as I pour my heart out.

Why does my mate have to be the one who kills and hurts people? Why does he have to be so jealous and possessive?

I don't know for how long I sit there and loose my mind. Sunlight starts peaking through my window and I raise my head up. It's morning now, have I really been sitting here for that long?

I sigh and get off the floor. My back is aching as I finally got off the floor.

I head into my white marble bathroom and get in the shower.

I stand there under the warm water bare as I wash away my tears and maybe even try to mend my broken heart.

I look and feel like a breathing corpse.

I stand there for I don't even know how long before I notice my hands pruning and decide to step out and get dressed for the day.

The only thing I want to wear are some sweats and a pullover hoodie, so that's exactly what I wear. The comfort of my clothes brings a small smile to my face.

Time to get the day going, I think to myself as I descend down the stairs into the enormous dining room. Everyone is sitting there happily eating their omelettes, cereals and even pancakes.

I pull my seat and sit down as I grab a clean white plate to fill with delicious fattening food. My parents and friends greet me a good morning and I greet them back with the best smile I can force upon my face.

I miss Raven right about now. I can tell her everything and she gives the best advice and her warm hugs makes me feel like I am hugging a pillow.

I pour the syrup on my pancakes and smile in delight. That smile does not last very long as I hear the chair next to me get pulled back.

The only person that has been sitting there lately is Alexander. I don't even care to look at him. I just dig into my food and start talking to David and Jamie who sit right across me.

The empty chair to my right just sits there as a reminder of where Raven sat and my heart sinks a little but I try to ignore it.

" So Ava, want to go shopping with us today? I need some new shirts as mine are getting to small." Jamie says to me as he cuts another piece of his cheese omelette.

" Probably because of all that cheese." I tease him and David laughs and Jamie glares at me.

" Honey, it's because of my muscles. These guns can make any one swoon." He says as he flexes his muscles in an attempt to win the argument.

" It is true. His muscles make me think if they are the reason why I am gay." David cuts in as he gushes over Jamie's muscles and squeezing them along the way.

I just laugh and continue eating my pancakes. I feel someone watching me as I do but I just shrug it off.

" So what time do we leave?" I ask them. I need some new sneakers and joggers anyways.

" Around two." David replies as he checks his watch. It is about nine thirty right now so I have time to chill before we leave and actually check my closet for what I need.

" Ma, you need anything from the mall?" I ask her as she looks at me with her warm eyes and shakes her head no.

" What was all the shouting about last night?" She asks me with curiosity and I just stare at her with a blank face.

" Sorry, I was just watching a movie in my room and I guess the volume must have been up to high." I lie flawlessly while twirling my hair. She looks at me and tries to see if I am lying.

Luckily I have been in the lying game since I can talk. I broke a lot of stuff as a kid and always blamed it on someone else or made excuses not to go to the doctor so my game pretty strong.

" Okay, keep it low next time." My dad joins the conversation and I just nod.

I grab the syrup and add it to my pancakes. You can never go wrong with too much syrup.

As I place the syrup down I feel a warm hand on my thigh. I look down and see a very family palm with a very familiar lion tattoo. It's a little bit too close to my most intimate parts and immediately I feel hot and sparks go up and down my legs.

I grab that hand and try to peer it off my leg. My attempts fail and Alexander quickly takes my once pushing handing into his.

If I stab him with my fork, he will heal quick right?

I consider the idea in my head but than realize there are too many witnesses around me.

" You have five seconds to let go of my hand or I swear I will kiss a random guy at the mall and send you a picture of it." I threaten him with my voice very low so only he can hear me and he immediately lets go.

I look to my left and see him sitting there with his jaw clenched tight enough to cut through stone. I know he wants to say something that will most likely go like "I will rip his head off ' but is keeping it in.

Guess he is trying to change, too bad he has to try harder. I smile in success and dive back into my pancakes.

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