"and I'm not afraid to love you now"
"love me?" he said softly.
i don't like how i wrote the first few chapters BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE
skip to chapter 8 if you want it gets better there :)
Loren brought me into an empty room upstairs. "What just happened out there?" She handed me some tissues. "I-I messed up" I managed to say. "Don't blame yourself Ju" she rubbed my back as I held my head down. "You don't understand do you? Joey is never going to talk to me ever again" I snapped. "I-I'm sorry" her face softened. "I just need to leave, I need to go home." I walked out of the room and joined everyone in the living room. Charles was sitting on the couch with his nose bleeding a little. "Julia, are you okay?" Ori walked up to me. I nodded holding back my tears. "Where's joey?" I asked scanning the room. "He left" Charles got up slowly. "Where'd he go?" He shrugged and wiped his nose with a tissue. "I'm going to look for him" I left without another word.
--- I walked a couple houses down and there was still no sign of Joey. He couldn't have gone far. After aimlessly walking a few more house down, I spotted him on the other side of the road walking alone.
"Joey! Wait!" I ran to him but he ignored my presence. He didn't react, I watched as he lifelessly continued walking. I stood in front of him to block his pathway, he abruptly stopped making full contact with me. His eyes were lifeless and glossy.
"Im so sorry" I struggled to keep in my tears.
"Why?" he shook his head in disappointment and continued "why my best friend? god, Julia I thought you were different"
"you have every right to hate me right now, but I regret it all" a tear rolled down my cheek.
"You lied to me the whole time at vidcon..." his jaw clenched.
"I thought you kissed her, that's why I did it" I got straight to the point.
"Loren? Are you fucking serious?"
"I saw the way you looked at her!" I rose my voice
"Like what? the same way I look at everyone else?... expect you I thought you were different" he licked his lips and sighed in frustration.
"I am different! I love you..." I assured him.
"the Julia Blair I knew was a beautiful, trusting, loyal girl who I fell in love with" he shrugged and began to walk ahead
"so thats it? you're just breaking up with me?" i asked.
"I guess I am" he turned back around before walking off for good.
I stared into space trying to process what happened, my heart felt like it had been shattered into a million pieces. There was nothing I could do but watch him walk away like nothing had happened. He gave up so easy, and what hurt me the most is that he didn't even look back. --- I got home and sat on the couch staring into space for what seemed like forever. "how was vidcon?" My mom came into the living room where I sat motionless. "it was... it was great mom, I had fun" I lied. "I'm glad you had fun" she smiled and kissed my forehead. "Can you spend a little time with your brother? He missed you a lot" she added before walking into the kitchen to fix dinner. I didn't feel like pretending to be happy, I wanted to cry. I got out my phone and logged into twitter to tweet.
I'm sorry.
I immediately deleted it but already knew people took screenshots
My Instagram notifications had started blowing up after I posted my tweet and that's when I realized it was from musershaderoom.
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Now people were questioning everything. I turned my phone off to block out the questions. I needed time to myself. --- This chapter is unedited 😝 enjoyyy. Also make sure to check out my new fanfic called "lost" it's about joey too and I'm going to start updating it :)
