Someone Better

Chapter 15

Author Note
I wasn't planning on this chapter being done so early but I finished early. I hope you enjoy.

(Writing most of this I was listening to Ed Sheeran's song called 'Happier' which I think the song goes really well with this chapter)

Warning: Some of the content contains depression. People with depression this chapter may trigger. This chapter also contains Alex not wanting to eat and that may trigger people with an eating disorder. I'm not trying to offend anyone with what I've written.

Alex's pov

It has been about a month since John and I broke up. I want to say I'm fine but I'm not. I was reading a book yesterday and a paragraph spoke to me it said "maybe we're all just looking for someone who cares enough to try. Someone who has never had the best memory, but remembers the little things about you. Someone who has always been a little shy, but opens up to you. Someone who has never been good at keeping a conversation going, but can't shut up around you. Someone who hates driving on highways, but will spend hours on it to get to you. We're not hoping to change them, no, we're just hoping to matter enough to them" that just broke my heart.

I have only seen John twice since then. I haven't spoken to him just because it hurts to bad. It has been a month and I still wake up crying. I miss him. I miss him so much. I haven't really talked to Lisa or Mark just because I don't want them to ask questions. Mom asks a lot of questions as to why John never comes over anymore but I feel like she knows what happened. At school a teacher sent me to the office because she was worried about my wellbeing. I now am required to go to the nurse everyday from 3 to 4 after school. I don't blame John but I do blame him because he broke me. He broke me in so many ways. The day we broke up he may have left but my heart went with him. We did have a lot of issues but I always saw past them.

I've heard John has moved on with a girl named Daniella. I found out she is a grade below us. Hearing that rumor broke my heart even more. I decided to find out if it is true I know I shouldn't but my curiosity has gotten the best of me.

I am in the hall way near John's locker. I take a deep breath and make it to his locker.

"Hey."

"Hey." He looks surprised to see me talking to him.

I know I need to be straight forward with this because I know I won't be able to do it if I drag it out. "I know it is none of my business but I was wondering if you and Daniella are actually together."

"Yeah we are." My chest felt heavy for some reason.

"Oh. Well congratulations. I'm happy for you. You look happy, a lot happier than you were with me." I felt like crying. I shouldn't have asked.

"Thanks. I've got to go. I'll see you around." He said with a smile.

How could he have moved on so fast? Did I not mean anything to him? I have had to pick myself up after losing the one person I loved most. I promised myself I would let him move on and be happy even if the reason he is happy isn't because of me. I have to except the fact that he is with someone else and he is happy.

Through out this month of being apart John hasn't left my thoughts. Everything is reminding me of him. I want to get him out of my thoughts but I can't somehow. I didn't expect someone to have such a huge impact on my life.

I heard the bell ring which signaled lunch was starting. I'm not hungry, in fact I don't really have an appetite anymore. I decide to go to lunch to see how John and Daniella act around each other. I know this is going to be a bad idea but I'm going to do it anyways, I just need to know.