Someone Better

Chapter 23

Alex's pov

It has been about a month since Lisa and I stopped being friends. To be completely honest I'm okay. I do miss her but I have already made that decision to leave her. I'm not always proud of what I do but I feel like that was the right decision at the time.

Mark and I have talked a little bit since that day. We are still friends but we aren't best friends. If he would need anything I would still be there for him, same goes for Lisa. I've been asking Mark about how Lisa is doing, even though we aren't friends I still care about her and I still worry about her. I probably could have tried harder to be a better friend to her but she just wasn't putting the same effort into being friends with me and why would put a lot of effort into someone when they wouldn't even give me the time of day to talk to me.

Ross and mom have been asking me about Lisa and why she doesn't come over anymore. For some reason I don't have the heart to tell them why. I think it might be some level of guilt or maybe my heart just chooses not to believe that we aren't friends. Every time they ask my breath gets stuck in my throat and my heart drops. The question has the same feeling as to when John and I broke up.

That makes me think of John. I haven't talked to him now for almost a year. I don't care about him anymore in the sense that I don't really care what his opinion is. After we broke up when some thing bad would happen my mind would automatically jump to him but now that doesn't happen. He is just a memory, I don't regret him but I wish I wouldn't have been so stupid and naive because I was so in love with him I didn't see all the things he did to me and I thought I deserved that. I thought I deserved everything he did to me, I thought I deserved all of it, but looking back I didn't deserve it. I thought I wasn't good enough for him, but the simple fact is that I did him wrong, I cheated on him with Mark and that is the one thing I really regret.

I don't really regret a lot because it makes me the person I am today. I do make mistakes, I make a lot of them. Life is what I make of it. As long as I can go to sleep knowing I can live with the decisions I made that day I'm fine.

Recently I've met this girl named Layla Dean. She has short blond curly hair and bright green eyes. She is in our grade and she seems pretty cool. I've talked to her a little bit here and there. She just moved here from Delaware. Her dad got transferred here after he got a promotion. As far as I know she likes it here. Today at school she asked if I wanted to go over to her house and hang out. I haven't been over to someone's house since I was hit by the car. I am a little bit nervous because for the past month I have only really hung out with Colton.

*The next day*

Today is Friday which normally means I would be going over to Colton's house until mom or Ross gets home from work but today is different. I feel a little awkward because Layla Dean  and I have only talked for probably at the longest five minutes at a time. I am a socially awkward human.

We only have ten minutes left of school. I actually miss Colton a lot at this moment. I don't get to spend time with him over the weekend a lot so I am going to miss him a lot but I'm also happy I get to possibly make a new friend.

I haven't technically made a new friend since I met Colton but in some sense I don't count him as a friend because I don't think friends are meant to be in love with each other.

The school bell draws me out of my thoughts. Layla Dean told me to wait for her at the front door of the school luckily for me Colton also always waits for me there since his class him downstairs. An instant smile forms on my face when I see Colton waiting at the door for me like he always does, my heart is beating a lot faster than what it normally does. I swear even though we have been dating for almost a year I still get butterflies every time I see him. The moment I reach him I wrap him into a hug.

"I'm going to miss you." I whisper.

"I'm going to miss you too. I will text you." He whispers in a lower voice.

"I love you." I say while hugging him tighter.

"I love you too. I asked my mom and she said we could hang out tomorrow if you wanted." I pull away from the hug a little but not too much.

"Yes I want to." I quickly answer back.

I went in to hug him again but I spot Layla Dean coming over so I let Colton go.

"Hey! Are you ready to go?" She says in a very cheery voice.

"Yeah I'm ready. Just give me one second." I say while turning back to Colton.

"I love you" I quickly say and hug him.

I don't wait for him to say anything back before I am off with Layla Dean to her house. We walk in silence for the most part until we actually reach her house which was about a five minute walk from our school.

Author Note

So I decided to end the chapter here because I want to make the next chapter about the sleep over.

Thank you all so much for reading.

I know this chapter was all over the place but I hope you all liked it.

Next update: October 1.

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