Someone Better

Chapter 22

Alex's pov

Recently Lisa and I haven't been talking like we were. She only really talks to me when she has no one else to talk to. It hurts. It hurts really bad to know I'm kind of like a second option to her. I have been there for her for so long and just because her and Mark are dating she thinks it is okay to basically ignore me. I have never had this happen before. I just don't want to lose Lisa because we have friends for so long but then again if someone isn't even trying to be friends why would I even try. Why should I give her any of my time if she won't give me any. At least I still have Colton to hang out with but it isn't the same. I love Colton more than anything and I tell him everything but Lisa and I have known each other so long that I'm not afraid to tell her something. I wish things were like that now. Life is not always how you want it. In life people make decisions and at the end of the day they need to be able to live with those decisions. I am happy for Lisa, I am really happy for her but I find it weird that she just doesn't find the need to talk to me. If I were to do that to her I would never hear the end of it.

Lisa, Mark, Colton, and I are all at lunch. I am not really saying anything because I don't know what to say. I have been talking to Colton at little here and there but lunch is an hour and a half so I'm not really sure what to do. Everything was fine until I hear the five words that instantly made my blood boil.

"Why don't we talk anymore?" I hear Lisa question. I need to stay calm because Lord knows I end up losing my crap and having people stare at me yelling at my 'best friend'.

"I don't know. Why don't you tell me?" I said as calmly as I could. I think Colton has picked up on that I'm mad because he puts his hand on mine kind of as a sign you are okay.

"We just don't talk anymore and I was just wondering what the issue is." Colton's grip on my hand tightened.

"You seriously don't know what the issue is!" I raise my voice a little more than what I meant too.

"Why are you becoming so upset?" She questioned with the same uncaring tone as before.

"Lisa are we even friends anymore? We hardly ever talk. We don't even act like best friends. Yes we still hang out but it isn't like we are talking to each other. I miss the way we used to be. You seem like you didn't even notice how much it hurts me for us not to talk." I don't know where I got this courage from.

"What are you talking about? We talk all the time!" At this point both Mark and Colton are looking at us like they are seeing something they never thought would happen is happing.

"Are you kidding me? When was the last lime we talked?" I snapped back.

For the first time since lunch started our little table is dead silence. The silence is somewhat uncomfortable.

"I-I'm not sure." Lisa said under her breath like she is ashamed of the answer.

I don't know what to say. All of the built up anger has all come out within a few seconds. I am hurt. I am angry. I feel like if I would have talked to her before hand we would have been fine but I'm not the type of people to spill my feelings to someone. I like to keep things bottled up because I don't want to person who hurt me know how much they hurt me.

It has been about a week Lisa and I had our fight. We still haven't talked. We don't even sit at the same lunch table. It honestly breaks my heart but in all honesty I felt like I am a second choice to someone I always put first. Sometimes the person who you thought would never leave leaves. That is what Lisa did. I'm some case she was still with me, she never left my side, but we never talked. She physically never left me but talking wise she left. She doesn't know what my struggles are anymore. We were best friends that basically became strangers. I wanted to stay and fight for our friendship but some people are not worth fighting for if they wouldn't fight for you. I wanted to be friends but that didn't happen. Do I regret blowing up like I did? Yeah a little but a people can only hold so much in before blowing up.

I can some how live with those decisions I made that day. I do regret it a little bit but sometimes you have to think about yourself before someone else. I am okay. I am still the same person I was before that day. I do miss Lisa we had been friends for so long. She was the best best friend I have ever had but sometimes you have to protect yourself from getting hurt. Yeah I did get hurt but it was me doing so, if Lisa would have just walked out of my life I would be hurting a lot more.

Author Note

I am very sorry I haven't be updating this story. I've been busy with school and band. I have had a lot of homework and having band practice after school I haven't had time to write. I'm very sorry for not updating I've missed writing so much.

Next update (hopefully) will be on the 30th.

Thank you so much for reading.❤️