Someone Better

Chapter 32

Warning this chapter contains depression and people dying. If you feel uncomfortable reading I completely understand. This section of the chapter in which this occurres  is during the flashback.

Layla Dean's pov

Alex and I have become a lot closer that what I originally thought we would have. We talk every day and we go to each others house basically every day after school and even on the weekends. Some people might say we will tired of each other but so far after five months nothing like that has happened. I honestly spend more time with her than Jung and I know it is hurting him but I just have never really had a best friend before. We get along so well and now her mom is calling us 'the duo' because we are always together. Alex has been going through some hard times recently because her and Colton broke up but I know she is doing okay or at least she tells me that.

I have never had a best friend or any real friend for that matter because I don't like getting close to people. Someone can't hurt you if you don't get close to them. Jung was the first person I let get close to me not because I wanted him to but because he refused to leave my side but I happy he did that because I fell in love with him.

Jung and I have always had issues but they were issues that could be fixed. Lately things haven't been so good.

Flashback 5 years ago.

"But mom I don't want you to leave." Even at 14 I still don't like it when my mother leaves to go on business trips. There is just something about this trip that makes me more anxious.

"You know I have to baby. I'll be back in a few days." I want to believe her I really do but a part of me is still telling me to make her stay.

"I'll call you when I get to the airport. I love you"

Those were the last words she would say to me.

One the way to the airport the driver hydroplaned and hit a garderail and went over the edge into a tree. My mother was still alive for a few hours but she was almost dead when they crashed.

I'll never forget that phone call that day telling me to go to my father's work with my little sister.

My father was always drunk out of his mind. The lose of my mother hit him hard because he was the one supposed to take her to the airport. I have never seen my father cry until that day. He blames himself and he couldn't live with the guilt.

A few months later he drunk by himself. He managed to walk to the subway and he fell in front of a train. No one tried to save him.

After that I went to live with my grandmother. This is around the time I met Jung.

My grandmother let me live in my parents old home so I didn't have to leave my school. After about a year I couldn't live there anymore. Everything was the way they left it. Clothes on the bed that belong to my mother,the pot of coffee that never got drank, the last can of beer my dad had before he went stumbling down to the subway. I should have stopped him but I was alseep and I regret that day because i could have saved him.

I got a job when I was 15 as a waitress at a restaurant. I worked all the shifts I could so I could have enough money so I could buy my own house.

About a year later I did just that. I made a lot of the house light blue because that was my mother's favorite color.

I want to make them proud of me.

End of flashback

That time in my life always plays through my mind. I want to go back and change everything thing that happened. No one really knows about my parents outside of my family and Jung.

I don't like getting close to people for this reason. The two people that I love most left me. Dealing with the death of both of my parents was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I'm still not completely over it and I will never be, it is just something I have to deal with. I think some days I'm okay until I get reminded of them and I just cry a lot, but how are you going to expect a girl who lost both of her parents within the span of 6 months.

I'm okay I guess but I'm just okay. I'm not great, good, or anything of that nature I'm just okay and I've been that way for many years now. I've learned to get used to that feeling of being alone until I met Jung.

I fell in love with him very slow at first then all at once. I didn't want a relationship, I didn't want to be close with anyone because of what happened but he never gave up on me. In a lot of ways I'm so thankful he didn't give up on me because he is everything I have.

When I met Alex she was super nice to me. She made me feel important. I could tell she had some issues but then again who doesn't have issues. I never thought we would have become as close as we are now but I'm happy we did because I've never had a real friend before even before my parents died.

Author Note

So I hope you all liked this chapter. I wanted to explain Layla Dean's story a little more.

Next update will be on the 18th.

Thank you so much for reading. ❤️❤️❤️