Someone Better

Chapter 9

Author Note
I don't work in the medical field I know nothing about medical care. Please don't get offended if I'm wrong.

Warning
This chapter contains mental illness and graphic content.

This chapter contains some things that may trigger people with depression. If you feel uncomfortable reading I'm sorry.

I'm not trying to offend anyone with what I have written.

I hope you enjoy.

John's pov

I honestly don't know what to do now. My head is clouded I can't keep my thoughts straight. The thought of Alex dying seems like pure hell. Not being able to see that gorgeous smile anymore brakes my heart. The thought of losing her terrifies me. The thought of not being able to hug and kiss her breaks my heart. I have all of these thoughts going through my head and all of these worries that Alex won't be alright.

I feel awkward. I have never met Alex's mom mainly because she is never home when I'm over at Alex's. I feel like Elizabeth thinks I don't care but the truth is I do care, I care so much that I don't know what to do with myself. When Elizabeth called me I was baseball practice and I hadn't heard from Alex for about an hour. I had a gut feeling something bad was happening when an unknown number popped up on my phone at first I didn't want to answer but something told me I should. The United Hospital isn't too far from the school so I ran there.

When I first met Alex I thought she was gorgeous. Her eyes caught my attention first. The green color of her eyes and her long hair looked so pretty. I remember what my grandfather used to tell me 'Son if you are ever going to fall in love with someone. Love who they are not what they look like.fall in love with their eyes. The eyes are the one that doesn't change physically.' I guess you could call it love at first sight. That day I knew I wanted to be with her.

I started thinking of all the good times Alex and I have had through the past year of dating. The memories in a way made me happy but also sad because there is a chance that we might not make anymore memories together.

It seems like Alex has been in surgery for an eternity but it has only been an hour. I think it is wrong to be on my phone so I start observing people. 

Lisa is having a hard time with being here. She is the kind of person that needs to see Alex at all times and needs to make sure she is alright at all times. Elizabeth is a mess, her makeup is all over her face. She can't sit still, she is pacing in front of where we are all sitting. Mark looks really sad and like he is going to cry at any moment.

There is actually a lot of people in the waiting area. A woman near the exit is crying. There is man drunk out of his mind. There is a young man probably the same age as us with a cut down his face and he has blood everywhere.

I feel sick. I need some air.

" I'm going to go get some air. I'll be right back" with that said I didn't wait for a response I got up from my seat and walked out of the hospital.

A wave of guilt came over me because I feel like I am abandoning Alex. What if she is out of surgery while I'm out here? What if there is an update? What is she is crying for me right now?

I start walking back the hospital. I don't want anything to happen when I'm not there.

Mark's pov

When I got the call about Alex a million things were running through my head. The one stuck out to me 'I don't want to lose her' but then again I never had her. I wondered 'what went wrong?' But then again what went right.