I woke up my tummy feeling terrible again. I shot up, holding my hand to my mouth, not even bothering to put my hearing aids in. I pushed past everybody and into the bathroom, clutching the bowl as I threw up again. The thing that scared me the most was the red. Aunt Wendy came in and closed the door locking the boys out. I haven't had my hearing aids in in about 3 days. I don't wanna talk to anybody. But my idiot father keeps trying to talk to me. I block my ears like I'm not listening even tho I can read what he is saying.
He says: "I'm so sorry Tegan. Please forgive me baby girl. I love you."
Then he starts crying. I'm pushing everyone but Aunt Wendy away.
'Are you ok baby girl?' She signed.
I shook my head.
'Do you want me to take you "out" and we go to the hospital?' She asked.
"Yes." I said, my voice probably sounding like a dead cat.
She carried me upstairs and I put my hearing aids in. How could they not notice? Beats me. She got me ready and we went downstairs. I was already covered in sweat.
"Where are you going?" Niall asked.
"We awe go-ing to tha hospital." I said.
"What is wrong with your voice?" Harry asked.
"I am deaf." I said.
"How can you hear me?" He asked.
"Ma hear-ing aids." I said slowly.
"How come you haven't told us?" The asked as we got in the car.
'I didn't feel the need to. I thought Shelly told you?' I signed.
'No sweetie. Shelly never told us.' Liam signed back.
'Oh.'
"How did it happen?" They asked.
"Wewl. A long time ago, I went into a fostaw fam-ily. The people there I thought wew vewy nice. They took me in, fed me. Anyway, one night, the fathaw put acid in my eaws. By the time someone did somethan, it was tow late. And at that moment when I was two years old, I was deaf." I said.
"Wow. That's terrible.." Niall said.
"It sucks cause I can-not heaw a wot.." I said sadly, "and now I sound like a dying whawe."
"No you don't baby, you sound like any deaf person would when they are talking, trust me. I know." Liam said.
"How da you know Wiam?" I asked.
'My sister, who is around your age now, was born deaf. She's the sweetest thing tho. She loves everyone and she would love you, you need to meet her..' Liam signed.
'I'd wish I could.. I'm gonna die Liam..' I signed sadly, my eyes glossing over.
"NO YOUR NOT! DON'T SAY THAT AGAIN!" He yelled.
'But-'
He shoved my hands down, 'Play on your phone or something.' He sighed.
His eyes were sad, lifeless, and teary. A few slipped out and I frowned.
"I'm sow-wy Wiam. I didn't mean to huwt you.." I said, crying.
"Just-just go to sleep or do something.." he said.
I sighed tangled my hand in his as he burst into tears. I grabbed Niall's hand too. They were both crying and I frowned. I made my uncles sad. Way to go Tegan..
"Why are they crying?" Aunt Wendy asked.
"I told them what was gonna happen.. An you know it is so don't lie like they did.." I whispered.
"Oh baby, you don't know that.. you beat it once.. you can again.. please remember that.."
"Mom overdosed on her cancer pills.. Aunt Wendy. She was dying. She just made it go faster.. Why can't I?" I retorted.
"Because you aren't gonna die on us! You aren't gonna leave us by committing suicide! You hear! You ever think like that I will kill you!" My dad said.
"I'm already dying!" I yelled.
"Just relax baby, but don't go to sleep. We are almost there." Aunt Wendy said.
"Shut up." I mumbled.
"Don't be like this Tegan." Aunt Wendy said, "not again."
"That jackass I call my father is in this car and threatened to kill me! What am I supposed to do! Jump over rainbows and fly? I want Ashton." I said breaking down and crying.
"Oh baby, I called them. Thank god they are in LA." She said.
"Well, I want them with me through this. Understand?" I said.
"Yes baby, I do."
-3 months later-
I grabbed Ashton's hand and frowned, "Hey uncle Ashy.. I love you." I whispered,
"I love you too babe, what's wrong?" He asked.
"I feel myself slipping away. All I want is for you to be here, and don't let go of my hand, I want you and Mikey to hold my hands and I want Calum to be next to you and Lukey to be next to Mikey.." I whispered.
"Ok babe."
"Hey dad." I said for the first time in three and a half months.
"Yes Te?" He replied smiling.
"I love you, don't be a jackass to people, for me." I said.
"I love you too Te." He replied kissing my sweaty forehead.
I love you all." I said, "thanks for staying with me." I whispered and took my hand from Mikey, pushing my breathing mask off.
I put my hand back in Mikey's, slowly closing my eyes. I saw my mom and smiled,
"MOMMY!!!" I screamed running towards her and embraced her as she spun me around.
{A/N: there will be an epilogue with just life after Tegan died, and then if you want, I will make a sequel.. Love you all.}
