Lucid || jian

Chapter 4.

Jc's Pov

The first week of school went by very quickly, I hated that I had already dreaded going to school. Kian and I had gotten awfully close unfortunately, my voices keep drawing me closer when all I wanted to be is away from him. I also became close to Connor, he made me very happy also, he was simple, understanding, and kind. I spent a lot of time with him, a little to much time honestly. And Dom, he despised me, it was terrifying honestly. Every time I'm around him my voices get overpowering and I have to distance myself before I would hurt him. And I was totally okay not being near him.

I sat in my desk, drawing Connor with his usual coffee in his hands, smiling like an idiot. The bell rang for lunch and I got up slowly, still smiling.

"Someone's happy." Kian said throwing his arm around me, "is there a particular reason?" He asked, looking down at me.

"No Kian, not at all." I muttered, blushing, my grip getting tighter on my sketch book. He noticed this and grabbed my book, causing anxiety to run through me.

"Catch me if you can daddy." He said in the most awful playful voice ever.
"KIAN!" I yelled loudly, running past people trying to get it back. We ran into the cafeteria and before I knew it someone stuck out their foot causing me to trip and take out Kian with me. "Fuck Jc you klutz." He chuckled, rubbing his hip before giving me back my sketch book. Anger and annoyance filled my face as we sat on the cafeteria floor.

"Ah don't be angry, it was probably an accident." Kian said, noticing the emotions on my face, patting my back.

"Yeah it was a little accident." Dom teased, tipping his tray over a little bit as he passed causing some substance to spill all over me. I instantly sprung up at him.

"You got a problem dude?" I said loudly, causing him to turn. Anger filled my whole body and my voices became louder, telling me to do things I would normally never do, but this time they added to the fire.

"Yeah, obviously. It's you're homosexual ass." Dom spat, putting his tray down roughly. "You don't want to fucking mess with me Jc." He muttered, loud enough for us to hear.
"Me? Homosexual? When you went down on Kian last week in the restroom, really Dom? Don't be a hypocrite." I said loudly for everyone to hear. Dom turned sour, his cheeks getting red quickly.

"That's enough."

Kian said quietly, his feelings clearly hurt as tears filled his eyes. Dom saw that too and lunged at me, taking a quick punch to my face.
"Dom fucking stop."
I growled, grabbing both his arms and shoving him against the wall, punching him a few times before he retailed and kicked me to the ground and got on top of me and punched me again and again until my voices took over.
I pushed him off of me and started punching him harder, I got up and kicked him again and again. I felt arms wrap around me, instantly causing me to stop. I got pulled out of the cafeteria, blood dripping from my nose. I slowly got dragged out of the school until the person stopped and turned me around.

"Hey, let's get you out of here okay?" Connor smiled gently, taking his shirt and wiping my nose with it before helping me to his car. He had my backpack in his other hand and I looked up at him and I felt nothing but contentment at that moment.

We got to Connor's house and he took me upstairs, we went into his restroom and I looked at my face, there was blood all over it, along with my shirt.
"How about you get in the shower before you start getting sore." Connor suggested, giving me clothes and a towel before closing the door giving me on last smile.

I got out of the shower and slipped into the clothes, my body starting to feel everything, I sighed in pain before seeing Connor changed also and on his phone on the bed. I took a seat on the edge of the bed before he got up abruptly, "here come lay down." Connor said, grabbing my hand and helping me lay down.

"You don't think I'm crazy?" I asked, breaking the silence.

"I think it's crazy that you beat Dom. But other than that no. Everyone wants to beat up Dom." Connor giggled before placing a water by the bedside. "Sleep well." He muttered before turning off the light.

"Connor wait. Do you think you could lay with me?" I said barely audible for him to hear. But Connor just smiled and took a spot right next to me, placing a kiss on my forehead before running his hand through my hair to help me sleep. I smiled slowly and closed my eyes.

Maybe, just maybe. It was him.

"You hurt Kian."
"You're gonna pay."
"You hurt him."
"You're disgusting."
"You're a worthless piece of shit."
They whispered in my ear while I tried to sleep. Guilt filling my body as I opened my eyes.

It's Kian, I know it is.
But I can't have him anymore.
He probably hates me.
God he hates me.

Tears filled my eyes as I laid there, sadness overtaking me.