Lucid || jian

Chapter 5.

                             Kian's Pov

     I had become so distressed after those words Jc spoke, tears uncontrollably fell down my face as the two boys fought, not knowing which one to help. But I was so hurt. So hurt. I left the cafeteria calm and unnoticed, my eyes diverted towards the ground. I left and drove to my house, anger over taking me as I entered. I slammed the door and threw everything in my sight on the ground. I saw my reflection in the mirror and fell to the ground. I had never wanted anyone to find out, I didn't believe it myself.

I eventually got up and slowly made my way to my room, I got into and started sobbing, punching the wall and such. I hated how Jc could say something like that, he was one of my closest friends. So what he doesn't like Dom that doesn't give him the fucking right to say that. I hate him. I fucking do. My body shook as I sat on my floor crying my heart out.

                               Jc's Pov

I woke up from my nightmare with Connor's arms around me, it had gotten later and I had to think so hard about how I got here. It was Kian, god I hurt him. I got up quickly and put on my shoes and grabbed my bag. This startled Connor and he got up, rubbing his head. "Where are you going?" He asked, "Kian." I turned, his response was an angry glare. "I wouldn't. He's dangerous." Connor warned, causing me to laugh. "But you don't know me do you." Jc smiled maliciously before exiting, "oh and thank you." Jc said loudly not turning back, leaving an upset Connor who laid back down and fell asleep.

I had walked Kian home one day so I knew exactly where he lived, I sprinted my whole way there. I eventually got to his house and saw his parents weren't home so I ran up the steps. The door was unlocked. I shook my head and opened it slowly, my eyes couldn't believe the mess he had probably made. I quietly made my way upstairs, seeing a door that was just slightly ajar. I heard quiet crying so I walked quickly, revealing a wide eyed Kian.

"Leave. You're fucking worthless. I can't believe I wasted my time on you."

Kian said, his voice shaking uncontrollably. "Kian I'm sorry, I'm so sorry it wasn't directed towards you." I pleaded, but this seemed to piss him off. He got up quickly and walked towards me slowly, hate clear on his face.

"Kian please let's talk about this."
I stumbled on my words as I walked backwards before hitting my back against the wall. "You ruined everything for me." He quivered, getting as close as possible to my face. I closed my eyes waiting for him to take a punch, I deserved it at his point.

Instead of feeling what I expected I felt lips against mine. Kian placed his hands on my face and pushed me harder against the wall, I kissed back. This is what I wanted. He slowly pushed away, his face red.

"Y- you too?" Kian shook his head bewildered.

"I never wanted to hurt you, I was just scared myself." I said slowly, still not believing what just happened. "It's okay." He smiled gently, grabbing my hand and pulling me closer, noticing I was shaking. "You're okay." He whispered, kissing my forehead. But this time it sent a chill down my spine.

And for once in my life I felt sane.